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Ok...I have been thinking about something lately and it is really starting to get to me. As of right now, I feel that I am bi, penis's turn me on so much and there is nothing I fantasize more about than gay sex etc etc I don't think yall need the details. I have all of these extremely erotic fantacies and feelings towards male masculiinity and sexuality, but I could never...EVER in my lifetime have something like a boyfriend. The idea just appals and disgust me. I have messed around with a guy a few times, and don't get me wrong, IT WAS AWESOME, but (lol, this is gonna sound weird, maybe even stupid), but every time, whether it is with a guy or not, right after orgasm, I feel like, "Damn, this isn't what I really want, or want my life to be". I have had girlfriends and only girlfriends, and I don't think anybody knows or can tell that I am attracted to these kind of things.....hmm. I guess that main thing I am trying to figure out is if any other guys have had this feeling. Please give me yalls thoughts.

Have you fallen in love with anyone? What gender do you have romantic feelings about?

Sexually I get more turned on by guys, but I guess I haven't every really engaged with a girl so I wouldn't know for girls in that aspect. But romantically, definitely a girl. This is absolutly no offense to anybody gay guys that have bf's, but the idea of having one is appaling and just disgusting. I do have more fun sexually with guys (even though they are the only ones I've messed around with), but romantic with a lady any day!

Could it be that gay sex attracts you more just because you're more familiar with guy bits and that's where your experience so far has been?

...Possibly, it has just all been really confusing trying to figure it out (what I should persue). Like I said...I am extremely turned on by males, but like you said, it may just because I am more familiar with it and have never had any experience with women. But it also is wierd because I have looked at almost all kinds of porn and gay porn turns me on more...honestly, I don't know if it turned me on when I looked at "straight" or "lesbian" (anytime where they showed females). I am so confused

It's hard for anyone to tell anyone if they are gay or not,But my thoughts are it sounds like you at least have strong attraction to men. I can remember when I was younger and learning about my sexuality I told myself that I like guys because of their bodies and how I wanted to have a body like them but romantically I wanted a female. It was several years later that I finally learn that I did have romantic feelings for guys but society had me to believe that gay relationships were disgusting and wrong. So, it might be possible because of societies influences have you to believe that being gay/bi and having a homosexual relationship is appalling and disgusting.Something you need to think about is what exactly is it about having a homosexual relationship that appalls you? Because you certainly have no issues being sexual with another guy, so it’s definitely not the thought of being sexual with another guy. When you have sex with these other guys do you kiss? Kissing can be very innocent, and yet can be very romantic at the same time. This is just something you will need to really breakdown for yourself. I just hope you understand that being homosexual or have a homosexual relationship is not wrong, it’s not disgusting its simply a small part of who you might be. Best thing you can be to yourself is brutally honest. Until you can be 100% honest with yourself, you’ll never truly know who you are and end up living your life as a lie.Like I said I have been in your shoes so if you have any questions or need someone to talk to, I’d be willing to give any advice I can or just be a great listener.Take Care!

Well I may not be able to tell you why you feel this way but I can just say I feel the exact same way. Although I never had any sexual contact with another man before. I am also trying to figure out why this is. For me I am a woman in my fantasies with men. I also have never had sex with a woman yet either I sometimes wonder if this plays a part in it.I to find it disgusting to see 2 men kissing or having sex with each other. No offense to gay males. I also would never ever top a guy or let him touch or suck my dick. I would have to be bottom and I would be the one sucking dick. Do you feel this way as well?

> I would have to be bottom and I would be the one sucking dick. Do you feel this way as well?

Aren't those the "more gay" positions?

I would have to be bottom and I would be the one sucking dick. Do you feel this way as well?>Aren't those the "more gay" positions? I would have to agree with you Steve. I am a bit perplexed at the moment lol.

I don't think gay fantasies make you gay/bi.

Yeah I have the occasional gay fantasy, like buggering some effeminate young man, but like I'm all for the ladies :nods: Cant bare the thought of giving head or being buggered myself though.

has any boys tried fingering their asses because i tried it for the firt time and i like it

Yea iv tried it a couple of times and its ok how old are you by way?

I've done ALOT more than that, and LOVE it