i'm a guy and i love playing with my ass expesially putting dick-like objects insidei dont consider myslef completelty gay but this just feels really good and i dont caremy question is first off how can i hide what i am doing? after i come out of my room will people have any idea i just had a fake dick in my butt? most importantly i try to cum without touching my penis but this is impossible. i keep gettin the urge to jack off but i want to learn to cum from toying my ass alonei also have an extremely weird fetish. i like to go on yahoo chats and show myself doing this on a webcam for older guys just because i love them jackin off to me and telling me what to do. is this sick and disguisting to most peope? i try to remain anonymous and not show my face but sometime accidentally do im also worried they might be recording it to sell at porn, is that possible? its like an addiction i cant stop doing though. right now i just finished and everytime i tell myself i wont do it anymore but i end up doing it
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Up my ass
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Not only is it possible but easy to record incoming images. I dont know that they could sell it as porn because you have to have the models signature to sell it.Nothing is there to stop anyone from recording and trading it off to anyone they please though. Heard of lime wire and kazza? Thats in addition to any yahoo groups or msn groups or any websites they hang out at for the purpose of doing just that.
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well the quality isnt thta good anyways i dont know if i shuoild be worriedim more concerned that im addicted to this and its become the onlyt way i can get off
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If that is the only way you can get off then you are addicted.I keep things out of my ass and avoid the stop start craptaulous web cams.
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after i come out of my room will people have any idea i just had a fake dick in my butt?
No, though if your face is flushed and you are breathing heavily, they may deduce that you have just been masturbating.
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is this sick and disguisting to most peope?
I don't know that that's quite the right question. Many people will be disturbed. You yourself are concerned that it has become the only way you can get off, and that it is an addiction.
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i try to remain anonymous and not show my face but sometime accidentally do im also worried they might be recording it to sell at porn, is that possible?
Yes, it is. It couldn't be sold legally but it could easily be distributed illegally, and it's very likely that at some time it will happen.
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i just destroyed my webcam to stop myself
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if any copy does exist is there a way to track it down?
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Sometimes something dramatic is necessary to break an addiction.
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In reply to: i just destroyed my webcam to stop myself Wow! If you were one of my clients I would be going on right now about your healthy striving and how you just demonstrated real strength and determination by doing that.But you're not my client so...I'll just say good job! And don't do it again!
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No, I'm afraid not.
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In reply to: if any copy does exist is there a way to track it down? NOthink of everyone you ever did it with and have no idea who they are or if they saved the images or not and if they made a copy and stuck it on cd or who they gfave it to. If its been done you have no chance ever to track it down. Of course you may always find it on a peer sharing network under go only knows what name.
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I tried all sorts of search terms on limewire. i think it there is a recording hardly anyone has seen it and probably no one ill ever see as longas i stop and forgetabout it
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Unless you become famous, then everyoe will see it.
And dont forget about the star wars kid, he thought noone would ever see his video and now millions have had a good laugh at his screw up. -
wat star wars kid
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i could always deny it though, its bad quality grainy porr lite and my face is barely in it maybe once or twice briefly and the webcam is badly delayed, u cant even see motion too well
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Google it.
Star Wars Kid
youll find alot about the little weiner and can see hsi vieo not to mention all the comments people posted about him and the enhanced video people made based on his original.remeber also that all the peer to peer networks only find whats shared and on members computers at any given time that the user is on. It cant access my stuff because I use a firewall and dont allow it to serach my computer for files. You also have no clue what anyone would of named it, description, a file number, anything that occurs to them.
I honestly wouldnt worry about it, just giving you some food for thought incase you should care to think about the future of your actions. -
would that be where you mentioned in another post and people only thought of stars?
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You so should have watched Wednesdays Oprah.YES! I watch Oprah I'm a SAHM give a break!
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Personally, if I were in your position, I wouldnt worry about people seeing my acts on the net. There's so much stuff floating around, that the exact caption where we see your face would *never* come into the hands of people you know and meet everyday. Dont worry about it. Even so, if they did confront you with it, they'd have to explain why they saw such material, and you could call it quits.
Anyhow, in your case I would be more concerned with your own relationsship to these things you've enjoyed doing. You seem to be very ashamed over this stuff, and I tell you thats the most stupid thing you can be at this moment. It doesnt help, it's not constructive so stop being ashamed. Instead try to work out a plan for how you're going to handle this.
First off anal experimentation and practice does not have to have anything to do with being bi or gay. Not at all. It could, but not neccessarily at all. You see, the anus and rectum are erogen zones for both genders. And we guys even have a G-spot to booth. So the fact that you practice anal play, and enjoy doing it does not have to do with anything else than you've discovered an erogen zone and use it out of desire to have heighneted pleasure doing your sex acts. Actually, there's no difference between that and jerking of your dick. It's all just erogen zones you use for sexual pleasure. No difference amigo. If you feel that your not into guys, and does not feel that this anal play have anything to do with guys, then you're not gay! And there's absolutely no reason at all to feel ashamed.
On the matter of your addiction to these webcam games... I dont know what lies in it. If it's a desire to do something forbidden, or if it actually means your bi-curious. Only you can figure that out. But I recommend you find a sexologist somewhere on the net, one of those with free answers, tell your story and listen to some professionel advice and judgment.
No matter what this means, these webcam games - It's a part of your past, it's a part of your history and identity. Albeit a small and problably very insignificant part of it. Nonetheless you have to accept these things and live with it. No matter what you are you should be relaxed about it and even proud if I may take it so far. There is no point whatsoever about being anything else about such things. About other people, yes they may be disturbed, they may be unable to understand and be very prejudice. But thats doesnt matter as long as you are a aware of what lies in this matter, what it tells about you and are comfortable with it. As long as you understand and accept, it does not matter if some people are stuck in their prejudice and inability to relate and understand.
Okay, sorry for the enormous post, but please mbr543 DO NOT be ashamed. That is so god damn stupid.
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hey im exactly like u. i love playing with my ass, as well as showing my ass on cams all the time. it makes me so horny. but im careful to not show my face and i doubt any of those videos u did will ever come back to u. dont worry your not alone..