Apology

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Listen I am sorry to everyone that I offended. Listen, for those of you that think this was all planned out, I tell you it was not. I mean it hurt me bad enough i am having problems with migraines and light headedness now. But I am sorry for all of you. I love kats to death and the last thing I wanted was her to get hurt. I would PM people but that is too many PMs to send out. I reacted immaturely but it was more of a blind rage. I am sorry, and I hope that we can work on rebuilding the bridges that I most likely burned. I need you guys more than I ever thought. You all give me the love that I do not get from everyone around here. I could only wish to have people like yourselves around me more often.

I never really had a problem with you in the first place but I find you a nice guy. I think you were just trying to prove a point that never got recognized but it's alright. I'm very sure the others will forgive you.

I completely agree with that EX member

Funny I never give myself a break. I think I expect more than anyone else out of myself. i mean I believe that i am the next Einstein, but I never have the drive.But I am really sorry. I mean I basically took out all my frustrations. I am truly sorry to Angel, but she got something special from me. I like that quote it is nice.

Look man we all have issues in our lives. We sometimes dont act like ourselves and take it out on the people around us. you are no different than anyone else on this site. We are all human, we make mistakes, we yell, we get upset, its normal. Dont sweat it, the most important thing is that you realized something that you didnt like and you came back and apologized to people you may have hurt. If you recall my little feud with steve, well i had familiy issues and one night i broke down and realized how stupid i was acting and i apologized. It happens to the best of us, i hope all goes well for u

thanks bro

no problem. If you ever need advice or something, or just need to talk feel free to ask. You can pm me netime

Jon.. seeing from past arguements, they way you talk on her.. and the way you express yourself.. I honestly think you might need some.. i dont know how to say this .. but maybe going to talk to someone who can offer you some professional help.. someone that you can talk to so you arent balling in all your rage.

I have considered that. It used to be anger but now it is other things, cannot put my finger on it. I mean my rage stems from the way I am treated.

Well i sometimes have the same problem and i think it stems down to personality. Based on the individual we all handle things different ways. Me for example, when people piss me off i find i take it out on the people who are nice to me. I hate that but for some reason i do it. When im stressed out over things i take it out in rage, i punch shit, i yell, i swear and then i get depressed. I am trying to control all of this myself now, its hard though. I think you need to look closer at things and try to figure out what trigers what and what you do when that happens. I think that would be a great start, if not, like pink said contact a professional.

I do pretty much the exact same stuff as you do. It sucks.

well see what soothes me and really gets rid of all my anger is Blues and Jazz. I love metal but it gets me all pumped up and crazy. Like right now I am listening to Mitch Woods and his Rocket 88s. Funny I found this b/c for one of my classes I need to go to a concert of Jazz or Blues or music. I looked them up and they are playing at a big Jazz club on Wednesday night up in San Francsico. I will take the girl I like, even though she told me she has a bf. I need someone to go do something with. This would be nice, some blues and good seafood.

In reply to:I will take the girl I like, even though she told me she has a bf Take it from me.....thats a minor detail

You Fucked up, you took off and cooled down. Maybe you should of done that earlier but you didn't. Now your back you apologized for what you did and half of what you did was a misunderstanding and break down in communicating thoughts and feelings.I wouldn't worry about it to much about it. you apologized for what you did wrong and I think most people here will forgive you. What you did not do what make personal attacks for uncalled for and stupid reasons, you defended your opinion thats all. Most people are willing to forget about shit like that since you didn't drag out bullshit but simply argued over your convictions, who can blame someone for having the courage of their own convictions? I don't think you were 100% to blame in it all either...I personally have nothing against ya over it all and I doubt many others do either.Welcome back

I am just looking to have an enjoyable evening. Since I am at home I am unable to party any so I stay at home a lot. So this would be nice

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I read what you posted in the thread I created. Things just escalated fast, but as far as personal attacks, well that is not entirely true I did attack someone through PM. But I am going to work things out b/c it was completely unnecessary.

You're a good guy Jon.
I'm not sure you know that.

I do not see that. I see that i screw up a lot and am lazy as hell. I have only heard that from everyone on here. No one told me that to my face, ever. SO Iam not a believer.

same here dude, i'm really smart and understand/learn things really fast
(i'm asian) but i don't have the self control to acually keep my comitment to do things

lol I know how it goes. I sometimes wonder if I understand everything too well. I can find loopholes and shortcuts that allow me to be lazy.