My real sexuality?

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I have a weird thing that has happen to me. I think I know why but I would like some input from others. I am 31 and my whole life I liked or at least I thought I liked woman. I looked and lusted after them all the time. However I never thought of having sex with one. The thought of me sticking my penis in something is not something I want to do. However in order to get off during masturbation I had to think of men. I never looked at a man and thought he was hot. I considered that I was gay but the image of 2 men having sex did nothing for me at all!!

Here is the odd part. I just realized that I LOVE guys they are so hot and sexy. I now realize that I never liked woman in a sense that I guess normal people do. I have never wanted to have sex with them although I always looked at them my heart would race and I would be like wow she is hot. I can just die with thought of being with a man "die in the good sense". Here is the very strange part. I see myself as a woman with a man and not a man with another man. I will watch internet porn and a scene with a man and a woman just shows me that I now what wanting sex is now like i thought i knew before. I have to be the woman. I can not see myself as a man with another man. SO what is ur input on this? Thanks

Okay I am bit confused and I had to read your post a few times... Maybe I am just not awake this morning lol.From what I understand it sounds like you prefer to be with a man when it comes to sex and a relationship and in the relationship/sex you see yourself as more of the woman and not the man. Correct?If so that’s perfectly fine! Now that you understand that about yourself you just have to accept yourself for who you are. From personal experience I can tell you that until you accept yourself you'll never be happy.

I'm totally confused as well.I mean I read you’re posting several times too and the only thing I can summarize it with is ask you if you’re saying you are a woman trapped inside a man body??

I'm a bit confused. Is it the role of the submissive you find sexually alluring thus the female imagery. Maybe you have submissive confused with female. Have no idea really but that is what I got out of your post.

Im in good company i am confused too .......

Seems like you have a gender identity issue. You assosiate yourself more as a woman than a man. Don't know what to tell you about that.

LOL, you confused people are funny! j/k I think I am a little bit too...but here is my take.For women: Haven't you ever looked at another woman and thought wow she is hot...I wish I looked like that!! or I wish I could pull that look off!!So anyway, I am betting that the orrigial poster is doing the same thing. Only he is in a guys body, and is really starting to understand that.He is unsure of those feelings, almost like we(I) was in Jr high. Eeeww can't look at a girl, I might be a lesbian..lalala..But as (I) grew up, I could see women as beautiful with no sexual attraction. And of course, the guys really turn me on!Natural, normal so on and so forth for the age.I think this is what this guy is going through, but fighting the social stigma that goes with it.I would suggest, some counseling, to sort it all out, and then if you want to do it, they have hormones, and opperations that you can have to change your gender.Sorry if I got it all wrong!

Haven't you ever looked at another woman and thought wow she is hot...I wish I looked like that!! yep sigh

So much for us always being comfortable with who we are huh Angel?I was going to edit..but then you posted.To the idenfan: You have been told over and over in your other posts to seek professional help. Please do, we can only support you in your decission, we can't make it for you.

Most Guys don't do that... We can acknowledge the guys are good looking but only to ourselves. We usually turn it around into a completive thing.

lol and us girls don't?!?!? Why do you think there are so many "beauty product" implants, and lypo, hair dye, and what about all that torture to go get ourselves waxed!!It's just a different style of competition

>>>>>>>>So much for us always being comfortable with who we are huh Angel?
I was going to edit..but then you posted.

**I didn't say that was me now-a-days Jenn. Im very happy with the way i look, and who i am now, but when i was younger i used to look and wish i looked like other people, thats what i meant :smile: **

oops! That was really more about me! lol I am happy with WHO I am, just sometimes not with what I look like. OK now Im off to the community again!?!?!

ok re-read that and it came out wrong LOLWhen i say i am happy with the way i look, i look very different to the way i looked even 2 years ago, ive always gone for the kinda gothicy look, but when i was young i never had the balls to be what i wanted, and dress how i wanted, now i have and do dress how i want,........i hope you didn't think i meant it in a big headed way, cos it wasn't meant like that............

I'm still alittle confused with your post hon, but I want you to explain to me what you meant by this statement...

>>>I now realize that I never liked woman in a sense that I guess normal people do.<<<

The word that hits me and makes me wonder is "normal" and I want to know what you mean by that? What exactly is normal anyways? The fact that you've realized that you like men doesn't make you abnormal does it? No, it makes you human, it makes you who you are.

Now I'm going to take a chance at trying to figure out what you were trying to say in your post... I'll probably over shoot and get it all wrong but I'm goint to try :smile:

I think you're confused on the gender roles when applying it to sex. To me, it seems as though you can't see yourself with another man because you are a male yourself, and it seems wrong in your mind (just my perseption, not trying to put words in your mouth, so tell me if I'm wrong) and by taking on/or assuming the "female" role it'll be okay.

That's all I can give at the moment, because your post is a little confusing to me... I'll think on it and try to post more later ^_^

LOL, Angel I swear you don't have to worry much about offending me...now if you called me an ugly bla bla bla...well maybe...I understood, and I am proud of you! Don't think otherwise.