i don't really know why i'm posting this. it just feels so terrible and i have to write it down...possibly even have someone tell me they know what i'm going through. Yesterday, after weeks and weeks of slow decline in our relationship, my girlfriend and i mutually broke up after 15 months...agreeing that it wasn't working out anymore. I've never been through this before, it's my first real break up with someone i've loved and been with for so long. The emotional pain is like a constant ache, occasionally interrupted by sharp stinging jabs when i find things from her in my room, or hear songs we liked. It feels like i'm in some terrible dream, and i'm waiting to wake up. But it's real. She's gone. We both agreed that we couldn't go on like we were - but i just wanted a break. She wasn't keen on the idea of a break so we just said it's over and that's it. Looking back on it it's probably a good thing cause breaks tend 2 screw people around more than anything else. The thing that worries me the most is that i wanted to end the relationship, but i still have all the same feelings and wanted to revive it later, after we'd sorted out own stuff out, but when i asked her if that was ever going to happen she said she wasn't planning for that. She didn't even seem too optomistic about still talking to each other. I guess it makes sense...you don't break up with someone expecting to get back together, but it's what i want eventually. We were both crying like 3 year olds when it happened, but somehow it just didn't seem like her. It was as if she was a different person. Here she is - the girl who i've been loving and affectionate with for the last 15 months and she won't even hug me back when i'm bawling my eyes out trying to say a last goodbye. I reckon she was just putting on a hard act to protect herself, but it hurt so much. I know it's stupid, and i know it defies the whole point of breaking up, and i know i'll probably end up being dissapointed, but this pain is eating away at me from the inside, and i've literally considered suicide...the only thing which is keeping me going it the small hope that one day we might just get back together.
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Just broke up with gf of 15 months
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Man i am really sorry to hear that. I think what you should do is talk to your ex and maybe she is feeling the same way.
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Most likely she is.. She probably won't admit it though
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Yah pretty much everyone is after a relationship like that unless it was a really really bad break up.