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Is this some form of depression? I don't know.. Every day I wake up feeling sore, and I don't want to do anything, but, I go to school, and when I'm there, I just go through the day, really tired, but I do my work. I laugh and make jokes with my friends, because I force myself to every day, because my really dumb friend calls me "emo" if I look sad or tired.. He's stupid. When I get home, I get really uptight and I feel scared and the house looks like a total mess (but its fine) I tell my sisters to help clean up, or something, and I get mad at everyone really easily, and I get this, kind of uncontrollable warm-kind of feeling to do something bad to them, like hurt them or break stuff.At night I have really bad insomnia, right now it's almost 2:00 AM, and I still can't get to sleep. It takes a long time to get to bed for me. When I lay down and close my eyes, my mind keeps going and I have to get up.During the day and at night I feel really scared and alone, and I HAVE to talk to someone, or I just go "crazy" and get overwhelmed with boredom. I've also been getting bored easier. This has been happening in the past few weeks...I think it might be.. I don't know..I'm 13, if that helps..

In reply to: At night I have really bad insomnia, right now it's almost 2:00 AM, I know everything about that Anyways, It deffinatly sounds like you have a form of Deppression.Do you know why/when this started?

It sounds very much like it could be depression. Particularly if you are having trouble sleeping.You say you wake up sore? What do you mean?Have you talked with your parents about this? Depression is a problem with very workable solutions if you seek them out.Please post more and let us know how we can help.

I am curious about the soreness too.I have a thyroid problem that creates alot of the symptoms that you are talking about.I don't know if that is a possibility for you, but I was around your age when I first started having the symptoms.I am wondering though, if it is more a case of anxiety as opposed to depression?

Well, I told my mom what was wrong with me, and she said to make a list, and so I did, here's that list:

headaches, muscle aches, stomach aches for no reason
grades tanked this quarter
bored easier
more angry
mood swings
irritated alot
getting fatter/skinnier and "appetite swings"
insomnia
slower moving
losing energy faster
hard to focus and concentrate
wierd dreams
forgetful
not using the bathroom regularly
slower in head
scared easier
fidgety

This started about 6 weeks ago, and its all been still going on...

We showed that list to the doctor and he said I was. I went to the doctor about 3 weeks ago.
He gave me trazadone for the insomnia, and stuff... I took it on my own and stuff, but I stopped taking it when I got kind of "suicidal" thoughts I stopped taking it and realized that Trazadone actually could INCREASE those thoughts in kids.. (wierd, eh? An Antidepressant that has a risk of increased suicidal thoughts...) I also started to get tingles around my back and I got numb and really hot easier. It was also hard to swallow for a while.

But, I'm trying to figure out if I have it or not, or if It's something else. Sorry my post was so short or whatever last night, my dad woke up and he had me get off the computer. I can't really let him know I'm doing this and stuff, he kind of makes fun of that crap, but he's nice... I don't know about the anxiety... I don't know how to identify it for some reason. >_>

Oh, yeah.. Lately I have been feeling calaustrophobic and messy, like in a car or in my house.... I just can't get comfortable either... If that helps, too. :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:

Hello future director.
If i simply say a lot of energetic thoughts and mental ramblings can work like a guard dog protecting deeper vulnerable emotions would that have any resonance to your situation. If so could you assauge the gaurd dog and calm down your mind to see if you feel quiet deeper emotions and what they might be. if you think this might be useful i can offer some tecniques to help you focus. Take care.

You should see another Dr. if at all possible. You have SO many symptoms that there could be a physical, underlying cause.

Get a blood panel ran, if there is something wrong with your hormones (your body produces LOTS of them not just sex hormones that everyone talks about) that should be treated 1st, and the depression type symptoms could just disapear!

Yeah, I can't see another doctor, it has costed my parents 500 bucks already, and they're just gonna get tired of me being sick.. And the settling down thing: I can try that...The doctor checked my blood and nothing was wrong with it, ill see if my parents will want me to go again..

Have you only seen a medical doctor? While that's a good idea to rule out any purely medical causes, you might want to consider a depression assessment by a psychologist.

Hey, I feel the same way as you do everytime too, I just don't have any sore muscles or stuff like that, so you're not alone. I'm not alone neither

futuredirector, I've just realised you're in Alaska, and you've been through an Alaskan winter. People in very high latitudes are especially prone to Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), which is due to not enough light during winter, and causes depression. Ordinary artificial lights aren't nearly as strong as sunlight.People with SAD usually find that spending an hour a day reading in front of a light box with lots of fluorescent tubes makes a big difference.It's only a possibility - normally people with SAD are depressed all winter and get better with spring, but it's something to bear in mind.Wikipedia article on SAD

Oh, thanks.. It might be that, but would it happen every year? I can't have my grades tanking every year, haha. I'm going to a doctor tomorrow for some reason, I guess I forgot that he said he'd call me in in two weeks to see how im doing.. :P

Ughh, sorry for the double post, but I didn't go today, my mom cancelled the appointment because we fought last night over the phone, and I was just saying crap to her, so she thought I didn't need to go, :|It might be that S.A.D. thing... I'll find out.

Hi Futuredirector, I had a lot of the symptoms you've complained of, and some others. Disruptions in sleeping patterns, either insomnia or sleeping for 12-16 hours but not feeling rested, waking up with muscle and joint ache, skin bruises easily, fluctuations in appetite, inability to concentrate, raise in stress levels, suicidal thoughts, loss of confidence, paranoia, and feelings of lethargy, that all led to conflicts with loved ones. I've had mild SAD for years and it got a lot worse suddenly this year. My experience is that the moment the weather gets a little warmer and the mornings get lighter, I just snap out of it and everything's fine again (until next January, except this year it started in November). So if you find yourself feeling generally happier and more stable as Spring sets in, this could definitely be what you're going through.I've not tried the lamps before but I definitely will this time. They set you back a bit though, when I've checked in the past the price has been around 100-150 GB Pounds. In the past I have taken vitamin supplements and been vary careful of my diet, but this year I've been a bit broke so I haven't been as careful about getting the vitamins, so that could be another reason why it's been a bad year. Even if it's still not bright and warm yet, I recommend being careful to eat plenty of fruit, drink lots of water, and spend as much time as you can outdoors during daylight hours. If it's SAD, getting ample light should cause your symptoms to ease off within a few days, although you may still have up and down periods.Good luck, no matter what.

Wow..You described exactly how I feel everyday.

I'll try that light thing soon... I've been getting suicidal dreams lately... I'm afraid to sleep now. >_>And all day I get random thoughts of hurting or killing myself, and I'm really scared.. Anyone know what do do?

If the light thing doesn't work, you need to get to a doctor or psychiatrist and say you are feeling suicidal. You deserve treatment.