Maybe your missed diagnosed. If the pills make things worse, stop them before you do something to yourself. Man I was taking Zyban to stop smoking and I lost the color for life too, I didn't care about anything and wanted to die. I stopped them right away, then it was better, although I still smoke, it was not worth self harm. An old friend of mine talked about suicide every day untill he found a good doctor who gave him something for his depression. It works for him without all the side effects. Don't give up! P.M. me if you want to talk, anything just dont try to kill yourself. There are also alot of wonderfull caring people on this forum that can back me up in saying "Stick with it, never give up"
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I need help.
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Hello, thank you guys for your support, I woke up this morning and I feel a little better. I managed to get out of bed a little easier. The reason why I felt like everyone is just ditching me or flaking out on me is because everyone I make plans with to hang out always cancels last minute or something lame like that. My best friend took off yesterday because he went to go play paintball with his other friends. My girlfriend didn't come over because she wanted to clean out her car. Even though I asked if I could come over and talk while she cleaned her car, the answer was still no. I usually get that alot, we'll have something planned for a week or so, and there's always some fucked up excuse that keeps us from hanging out. Sometimes I feel like she doesn't care about us anymore and may be cheating on me. Yesterday wasn't really a good day because everyone that was going to hang out took off like normal, I was sitting at home by myself with nothing to do, I just layed in bed all day, and I didn't really do anything productive. I felt really lonely, depressed, and bored. In reply to: btw,did u tell your mom yet? I can't tell my mom because she wont care if I do tell her, she wont really help me. The only adult I can talk to is my friends dad, and we aren't really that close. My mom and I aren't really close to eachother, and she gives off a careless attitude towards me nearly 100% of the time.Thanks for all your support, I'm still going to try the medication for another week or so to see if things get any better.
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Okay...I think you should put little signs all over your room or your car or your bathroom or whatever that says "they take a while to kick in". I know it's frustrating to take medicine and not see any effects for a while, but it will come I promise.As for friends...that's one of the toughest things about depression. If they aren't mature or not really good friends, they may very well not want to deal with someone that's depressed. I found two ways to deal with this. Plan to be with friends in the evening. Usually a person with depression feels better and functions better in the evening. Chose that time to be with them. And when you're with them, do your darndest to not come across as depressed. Also, try to focus in on a friend or two who understand what is going on and can be supportive. Be with them as much as possible. I was disappointed to find out that, for me, this wasn't my "best friends". But the support was there and needed and appreciated.Another thing...are you seeing a counselor at all? Cause you really should. The best way to get better is not just meds. There should always be a counselor involved. I don't think I need to go into reasons why. I think you probably understand why. And as for your mom, I bet you'll find she's more concerned and supportive than you think she is.
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I don't know what to do anymore. I give up on myself and everything. This medicine isn't helping at all. I had a horrible day at school. My girlfriend got mad at me because I asked her to not talk about how hot other guys are in front of me. She got pissed at me because I actually said something this time. I never say anything to anyone no matter how much they piss me off. I just let everyone fucking walk all over me. I don't even feel like finishing this post. Thing are just getting worse, and I feel even more horrible. I put up post it's around the computer and a couple by my bed. Thanks for the suggestions and help, it means alot.
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In reply to:I just let everyone fucking walk all over me.You didn't this time, good on you. Most girls don't like guys saying how hot other girls are in their presence, and tell them off if they do - it shouldn't be any different the other way round.
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Today, I feel much better. My anxiety is slowly starting to leave, my depression is lifting, I'm not worrying about anything as much anymore, and it feels pretty good. There are still minor things I am scared about though, will I still feel the same as if things were to normally happen to me? If something happens to a friend, I don't just want to brush it off... I'm scared I wont be the same person anymore...
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It's a good thing if you are less anxious. If something happens to a friend, you can still empathise, but because you are less anxious you can be more useful if something should be done, you can be more comforting if words need to be spoken, and if nothing can be done you will do less unproductive worrying.
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Ok, the medication made me feel a little better for a while, but I feel like absolute shit again. What's up? I feel like I want to kill myself again =[Should I get a medication change? I kind of want to just give up... =[
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The single most helpfull thing that I did with my life was getting my blackbelt in Karate. I have learned so much like self respect, respect to others(when I want..he he) and discipline. I am not joking when I say that one way or another, you need to do a lifesyle change and fast. Karate is not about fighting and breaking boards, in fact there is no breaking boards in a real Karate dojo. Try it, you may relly enjoy it, or get into something else that you have always had an interest in. You owe it to yourself to change. That sometimes makes all the difference.