I've been in a long-distance relationship for quite awhile now (going on 20 months soon). My boyfriend and I are both 16 and we live almost 200 miles apart (that's about 3 hours, driving).We usually see each other about once or twice a month for a couple of days at a time. He came over today and I was so excited to see him again. I love the time we spend together, and there's nothing I'd rather do than just BE with him. We have the most amazing times whenever we're together...I feel like we're one person, we have so much in common.And don't get me wrong, I had fun being with him today. We pretty much just hung out around my house and went for walks and stuff. And I get to see him tomorrow too, and the next day again.Until today, I've never ever EVER doubted our relationship. It's been hard (we were both 14 when we met and he asked me out) being in a long-distance relationship...before he got his license recently, we would sometimes go months without seeing each other. But still, I NEVER doubted my love for him. Sure, you can say we're too young to be in love, but when you're in love you KNOW it. And I've known it, for a loooong time...So my problem is figuring out what's making me doubt us now. These should be the best times of our relationship. We both recently got our drivers licenses, so we can see each other much more, and summer is just around the corner so we'll be able to spend weeks together if we want...but I just don't know. Up until about an hour ago, everything was fine. But after he left, I got to thinking. I was just laying on my bed and I started crying and crying and I couldn't stop.All these memories of things we've done were flooding through my head, and it made me cry even more. That's what doesn't make sense to me. Shouldn't those be the things to cheer me up? You would think so...And just a few minutes ago, our song came on the radio, and I thought that would cheer me up, but it just made me cry even more. I cannot stop bawling my eyes out and I hate myself for it. I should be happy that he's in town and i get to see him tomorrow, but something, for some reason, is making me really sad and I just want to know what. It's driving me insane right now.I don't know what kind of advice or help you guys can offer, but I will be so thankful if you at least try. I'm going crazy right now.
I'm so, so, so confused...
are you worried about your relationship not being able to make it through high school/college?
It sounds like you've made a tough deal work pretty damn well so far. The way I see it, if you are convinced you are made for eachother and want to spend your lives together, you have to have some sort of light at the end of the tunnel. What I mean by that is some time when you will end up being able to see eachother much more regularly (either living in the same town/city or moving in together). If you can hang on to that idea I think it will make times like you are experiencing now much easier.