So another thing about myself which isn't helping me, especially now that I'm in college.I got this problem of being way too self sensitive. I know I shouldn't be, it's like I have normal thoughts about it all yet I'm powerless to actually do anything to feel comfortable. For example I can walk down the street, and for some reason feel everybody is watching me walking, even though there is nobody on the street! I even think about how my hands look when I'm walking, like they are like bear paws or something, it's so stupid. I also do stuff like worry about my clothes being messy/stained and they have to be perfect.It's a lot different when I'm with friends though, I can pretty much be free and don't feel anything. I walk how I want, go places, go out, talk to strangers a lot better (such as I'm at a counter at a shop, I'd ask normal with mates but without I'd probably not ask for the right thing, or say it so they can't hear).Like I really, really want to start to go to the gym. I have all the info and everything, but I can't seem to just go myself and sign up. Don't know why or anything, and because I really want to (I know nothing is holding me back) I feel quite disappointed. I don't want to ask mates to (even though they wouldn't) because then I'd just be too used to going with them I wouldn't be able to break that problem off too.Same goes for going out + meeting new people, if I'm on my own I generally won't do it unless I'm forced.I've read a lot about self confidence and everything, but it doesn't seem to help... Really frustrating.
Doing things without others
I am with you on this one. I have a very, very similar problem. I have no clue what it is. I don't have much self-confidence and wish I knew how to change that.
It's okay. When doing martial arts, you have to be aware of your whole body, from the tip of your toes to the top of your head. Most people aren't very aware of their own body so it's a good thing in my perspective