heres my life story.... funaround when i was 4, 5, 6 them years i was in domestic violence including watching my dad hit and throw things at my mum and even stab her once while she was at work and tried to stab my uncle.not only that but also attack me one time and locking me in the house with everyone locked outside the cops jumped in just in time tho.altho it wasnt his fault he had a heart transplant and his medication made him like it.but on the last few months before he died we got really close so of course the death shook me a little too.a week later we were in a home invasion caused by mums suposibly friends who caused it who was blaming mum for somehow killing himin 2003 my cousin melissa died, she hung herself.i had to cope with that and also being there for my family and trying to support themnot long after that my brother was diagnosed with a heart disease the same disease my dad had, so he was put on the list for a heart transplant.it was also explained to me that i could get the same disease which can be fatal.also my brother came out about being gay, i didnt care cos i knew i was bi but mum didnt take it well at all about him and he got depressed and they were arguing non stop for daysalso my grandfather died last year who was the support for everyone in the family especially my nanna, i had to in a way put my grieving aside to help my mum and my brother and everyone else the best i could.in the midst of all this i had also become a cutter, sad yes but it seemed like the best releif, and my teacher seen the scars and got a little worried but didnt tell my mum thank god.watching my brother get sicker and sicker but thankfully a heart came up and is doing great but i have to go for tests in a few days to see if i will get the disease which has shaken me up too.i also gave up drinking after that as i also found drinking as a way out and whenever there was alcohol i would drink it til i passed out.although this year has gotten better i just feel im falling apart again with me having to have the tests also even tho i have alot of friends i feel i cant trust them and the only one i can is actually one thats on the internet in lithuania who is going thru depression too, but i just in a way need her here or me to get away from here.I dont wanna go thru what my brother did, i wanna be able to have a happy life but the odds are against me with getting the disease. i cant tell anyone how i really feel not even family cos i cant always trust them and so i have been keeping it to myself for so long.altho it may seem like a stupid headline for a kid who wants attention but its not i seriously cant take it, i wanna be a happy normal teenager and i just need someone i can actually cry on and talk to but its really hard to find one in adelaide (australia) i know theres always someone worst off but its still too much to handle on my own, i just dont know what to do
Falling apart again
I'm very sorry Cam, you've had a hard life so far. I hope it gets better.
It's true that there's always someone worse off, but that doesn't help. Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on. All of us human beings should support each other. There is nothing wrong at all with wanting things to be better, much better, than they are. They aren't the way the world should be.
if you need someone to talk to you can message me. i know how you feel. i hope and pray that things get better for you hun.
i thought i had a tough life but that one's worse i feel sorry for you no one should have to put up with s**t like that