Yes its me again, and I haven't quite decided yet whether this is going to be a long post or not.SO I was sitting here thinking to myself, about the meaning of life. Well I wasn't, but its a good start I guess.The meaning of life for all other living stuff on this planet is to reproduce. They don't have to go to work, or shower on a regular basis. They just live. I doubt the concept of love really exists to them.SO thats what I was really thinking about, is love. that four letter word that makes me, and I have no doubt, countless others feel like shit. I think about love and I feel emptiness. I feel like love is there to taunt me.Life without love. I mean love from outside your family. The idea is great. I have been told by girls that yeah, I'm a 'sweet' guy. But is that enough for them? Apparently fucking not.I am 17 years old. I have never had a girlfriend for more than 2 weeks. Not for lack of trying. There just doesnt seem much point to me any more. I just get hurt for my hard work.I started out today feeling great. Now, I feel shit. Maybe its a combination of the alcohol, talking about my feelings, and finally this post. I feel very low. I don't understand it. I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL FUCKING TEENAGER. Do I get that? fuck no I dont. Instead of finding a nice girl to go out with, I feel weak and inadequate. I dont know how many times I've said it on this BB, but I just want someone to love me as much as I could love them. Is it too much for me to ask that of girls my age? Is it too much for me to ask them to have a serious relationship? That is of course if they can get past the weak/inadequate/fat/ugly twat part about me.Oh and then, shit, they'd have to deal with my up and down emotions. I just want to die. At this moment in time, I can think of nothing better than fucking off to the next life. If there is a next life. I kind of hope there isn't, because if its anything like this one, its one misery after another. I see people everywhere who are happy, and I think 'why can't I just be you?' I don't want to feel like this any more. Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and feel fine. I hope this is a one off. Well its not a one off because I've made posts like this before....Sorry for wasting site bandwidth/peoples time. I have nowhere else I can vent my feelings because I feel like no one really gives a shit.
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girls are not everything ok...don't think that u need one to be completethey can tear you apart... thats something u deffinately dont wantbtw 'sweet' guys typically don't end up having gf's. do a search around on the net to find more info on how to pick up chicks, and believe me, being "sweet" doesnt get anywhere. in short, you have to appear to be an over confident hardcore guy who plays hard to get. i didnt believe it at first, but do some research if you really want to learn how to pick up...but seriously, girls are not the answeri'm 20 and i've never had more than 1 relationship and thats when i was 14 man... dont be too hard on yourself
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Okay I'm going to try not to be BRUTALLY honest but I AM going to be honest. In reply to: The meaning of life for all other living stuff on this planet is to reproduce. They don't have to go to work, or shower on a regular basis. They just live. I doubt the concept of love really exists to them.SO thats what I was really thinking about, is love. that four letter word that makes me, and I have no doubt, countless others feel like shit. I think about love and I feel emptiness. I feel like love is there to taunt me.Life without love. I mean love from outside your family. The idea is great. I have been told by girls that yeah, I'm a 'sweet' guy. But is that enough for them? Apparently fucking not. The meaning of life, first of all is what you make it to be. It can be about living life at that exact moment, finding love, getting ahead in life, or it could just be about procreation for some people.The second thing you should know is that there is someone out there for everyone. And I mean EVERYONE. Love isn't some infatuation you feel for someone in then it goes away some day. Love isn't a place you walk to and just get there over night. Love is something that you do and feel that is always evolving over time. You have to give it what it needs. Like a flower needs water, sunlight, and air. Love and relationships need their own version of these things. Water is a neccessity for a plant so water in a relationship could be communication. Sunlight could the emotional side of things like being a shoulder to cry on. And air is the equivalent of space. Every relationship needs room to grow. And just like you wouldn't expect a plant to stay in the same potter that you had it when you first got it, you can't expect your relationship to stay the way it was in the beginning. Knowing that should help you hang onto someone longer. Basically, don't suffocate the "plant". There is too much of a good thing.And having a girlfriend is not all it's cracked up to be. Girls think they're entitled to know where you are at all times and who you're with. We get jealous. We're possessive. We fight if people look at you the wrong way. And while you may like it at first, if you indulge her she'll get worse and it will get annoying.Just being sweet can be enough but sometimes it's not. Girls will pick fights with you on purpose. And my only guess is that they're subconsciously trying to see if you'll put your foot down and show that you have a back bone. In other words they're trying to make sure you don't let people walk all over you and that's including them. In reply to: I am 17 years old. I have never had a girlfriend for more than 2 weeks. Not for lack of trying. There just doesnt seem much point to me any more. I just get hurt for my hard work.I started out today feeling great. Now, I feel shit. Maybe its a combination of the alcohol, talking about my feelings, and finally this post. I feel very low. I don't understand it. I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL FUCKING TEENAGER. Do I get that? fuck no I dont. Instead of finding a nice girl to go out with, I feel weak and inadequate. I dont know how many times I've said it on this BB, but I just want someone to love me as much as I could love them. Is it too much for me to ask that of girls my age? Is it too much for me to ask them to have a serious relationship? That is of course if they can get past the weak/inadequate/fat/ugly twat part about me.Oh and then, shit, they'd have to deal with my up and down emotions. I just want to die. At this moment in time, I can think of nothing better than fucking off to the next life. If there is a next life. I kind of hope there isn't, because if its anything like this one, its one misery after another. I see people everywhere who are happy, and I think 'why can't I just be you?' I want you to read what you've wrote in this post over and over again until you see what I see. You sound desperate. Would you date someone who sounded the way you do right now? No, absolutely not. You need a serious confidence boost hun. 'Cause that's what it's all about it. Confidence. Girls are typically the same regarding mind games that they play. But if you're lucky you'll find a good girl who doesn't play those games.And having a girlfriend isn't going to make you happy. You're unhappy with yourself right now. Not because you don't have a girlfriend. And your lack of self-confidence isn't going to disappear just because you have one. Right now you need to concentrate on you and making YOU happy. Then once you've accomplished that you can worry about a girlfriend. Just take care of yourself. And I guarantee you that if you if you just quit looking for a girl...one will find you. That's how it always happens.
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your lack of self-confidence isn't going to disappear just because you have one. Right now you need to concentrate on you and making YOU happy. Then once you've accomplished that you can worry about a girlfriend. Just take care of yourself.HUGS N CUDDLES::
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I diagree about low self esteem not going away when you have a boyfriend/girlfriend. I am also 17, and in the same boat as the original poster. I desire a mature, serious relationship, not the kind of "bf/gf" relationship my "friends" have, where they fight every day because they have no idea what the concept of love and relationship and sex and marriage and trust, etc. is about. I had very, very low self esteem because I didn't think anybody could possibly love someone like me. I've been diagnosed by several different doctors with several differnet mental "problems", so maybe I'm literally "crazy", but having someone does help your self esteem greatly. When I had a boyfriend, although he only lasted one week, I felt much better about myself. I still feel better about myself, a bit, because I know that people out there DO find me attractive and DO want to be with me. Unfortnately, they are all immature people...but nonetheless...Michelle