atm i just have moments where i want to end it all i just want to be somewhere and someone rob it with a gun so i can walk upto them put the gun to my head and tell them to pull the f****n trigger please can anyone give me advice on just how to chear up i just wanna stay alive and not kill my self i dont want to hurt my friends and family like that and why should depressed people avoid alchohol?
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I just wanna die
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Alcohol often clouds your judgement, which is why we do stupid things we wouldn't do when we are sober - it can make people down and depressed while they are under the influence, and often you can convince yourself that something is right or wrong, cos you arn't thinking straight.We do you feel like you wanna die hon? What is it in your life that has taken you to such a dark place? EVERYTHING can be sorted, contained, gotten over, or just coped with, once you face the problem/s. Talk to us, thats what we are here for cuddle
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well when i was born my granmother died not to long after so i never new her so i got attached to my grandfather then when i was about 5-6 years old my mum and dad broke up because he was starting to get abusive towards her then where i was about 8 my gradfather died that hit me hard then when i was about 12 i had a sexual experiance with a 14 year old male that i was extremly comfercable with and i have been bi ever since only 2 of my mates knew and they were ok with it then i started getting bullied at school due to the fact that i was just that type of guy that wouldnt stand up for my self then about 3 months ago i left school and got an apprenticship which is great exept now i havent seen many of my friends and i used to realy on them to basicly make me happy and keep these types of thoughts out of my head and also this other guy at school who hates me for some reason found out i was bi and went and told everyone i was gay and made it seem like a bad thing so in the last 3 months ive just gotten worse and its at the stage i just cant handle it then i have times when i get paranoid and those 2 things are not a good combo but im going out this saterday to a mates party so i can see everyone and i hope that will be cool so thats why i asked about the alchohol but i recently met this girl and shes REALLY cool but shes 13 and im 16 and i dont know if im to old or not exept she has helped alot just by talking to her i instantly feel happy so i try to spend as much time as i can with her but i dont want to spend to much time with her and just kind of over do the whole friendship thing if all that makes sence
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Alcohol at a party with friends, would be fine, I was worried that you were drinking alone...........as for the age gap, as long as something sexual doesn't happen a friendship between you two isn't wrong.You have had a lot of shitty things in your life happen to you, however, you have to put those in the past, and concentrate on being happy in the present, if the past is causing problems, talk to someone, work through all the rollercoaster of emotions that you went through, and you will be stronger and more able to take on the problems that life holds, since it does present both the good and the bad things to everyone.Friends come and go, and you need to be happy and feel happy for yourself, be happy with who you are, and your life, if something isn't good, change it, or at least come to terms with it..........what i mean is you can't rely on others to make you happy you have to be happy with and for yourself, and yes good freinds go a LONG way in doing that, but at the end of the day they arn't with you 24/7.The guy at work sounds like the kinda prick i hate, and to be honest those kinds of people will generally bully others for anything if thats what they intend to do, hes picked up on the bi-sexual thing and is going with that, but it could have been anything. If it gets too much is there no one you can talk to, his boss or supervisor? or can you figure out ways to avoid him as much a possible, not everyone will agree with his views, be confident in who you are, and the important people will accept it, the others who don't, don't matter.Being paranoid is something, i beleive that comes with being depressed, sad, in a dark place, cos sometimes it seems the whole world is out to get you....... when its not, its just that life, at some point, is cruel to everyone, you just need to learn how to handle it, and get over it.Probably all that i have written makes no sense, but hopefully you will take a little bit of comfort in the fact that you are not alone in feeling the way you do, and there are people out there who will isten, if and when you need to talk.
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well thank you for your help and it was a guy at school not work so it dont really mater cause im never going back there and i do ocationally get drunk when im alone but since i play internet games due to difrent timezones i always have someone to talk to and the majority of the people i know know that im depressed and they all understand and im starting to think the fact im paranoid is helping me cause i get to the stage where i have the knife in my hand then i get paranoid and think what people would say like how if i did kill myself they would say im took the easy way out and then i just cant haddle the fact people would be talking about me so then put the knife back so as wierd as it is being paranoid helps
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PM me and we'll have a chat. You're not alone, you know. We're all here to help.