Hi everyone!
I'm sorry if this post ends up being really long.
Some background:
I'm 19.
I'm waiting until marriage.
He's 22.
He definitely hasn't waited.
He doesn't like to date virgins.
He lives one state away.
His dad lives a few streets away from me.
I've tried to avoid forming any new attachments because I know I'll be moving in 6 months. Somehow, my weekend with "the girls" resulted in a long distance relationship. A few of my friends decided at the last minute to go out of state for a weekend. One of the girls had a couple of close friends who invited us to stay with them. When we arrived I felt an instant connection with one of our hosts. Apparently, he felt it too because he canceled other plans to take me out that night. When we discovered that his father lives in my town he asked if he could come to visit me the next weekend. We talked and texted everyday after I left and he stayed at his dad's place for 5 days the next week. Things just really clicked between us and started to move really quickly. I tried to back out a few times, but he kept pushing me to give things a chance and not ignore the strange coincidences and chemistry. When he left we talked a few times a day everyday. One day started referring to me as his girlfriend. He encouraged me to let my guard down and said that if we did fall in love that he could always move with me. I thought things were moving too quickly, but my feelings did intensify. He called me one night and told me that he scared himself with all of his talk about the future... I offered that we could slow down and stop seeing one another exclusively and he said he didn't want to change anything, but that I should know he was scared too.
He came to visit a week ago and things got kind of hot. We were both turned on and I was teasing him (I shouldn't have). He wanted to go down on me and I wouldn't let him.... I proceeded to have an anxiety attack- complete with hyperventilating. I freaked out which freaked him out. He got upset that he might be pressuring me. The next day we went to lunch and then he had to leave. Things have been weird since that night. He went from calling me 6 or 7 times a day to once a day. He doesn't leave me texts. He doesn't myspace me (stupid I know). When we talk it isn't for hours like it used to be. I actually get off the phone pretty quickly now because I feel like there is no affection on his part. He doesn't tell me he likes me. He doesn't tell me I'm pretty anymore. I'm not usually insecure or needy with guys, but I've told him that I don't like his change in behavior and he says he just feels lonely and sad. I've told him that if he doesn't like me anymore that I don't want him to feel trapped, but he says it isn't me. I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE! I was dating several guys when I met him and they keep calling and telling me they miss me and I'm beautiful- I wish he were saying those things again. I can deal with not talking so often, but having a long distance relationship with a guy that I don't feel likes me is not healthy. I'd like to wait 2 weeks until I see him in person again and assess the situation when we're together, but it's really hard not to just call and end things right now. I really like him and I'd hate to wonder what would have happened if I had just waited a few weeks.
Should I wait until I see him or cut my losses now?