Suicide survivors

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@SilentRain:You're right, for a lot of people it is just an attention seeking thing and they don't really mean to commit suicide. And then there are the few that don't mean to get attention and that are really serious about suicide. And people tell other people about it because they have no one to talk to.

SerenityFox:All that happened really is I passed out for a few hours, and woke up with my heart racing and a huge headache. I had EXACTLY the same experience, same physical effect with the painkillers not working, the only mental effect is wishing I had taken more and done the job right.

^^FYI that was me posting^^

i agree w/ you . i disagree w/ the people saying this post is an attention seeking excercise.

I just don't think it's a hard task to do the job right. Jump off a cliff, gas yourself in the car. They're pretty sure-fire ways of doing it.Your body is pretty smart. Anything you stomach will most likely be barfed back up.It's a known fact. Most attempts are a call for help. Look, I don't want to be morbid, but you can't argue with facts. There are too many people that have attempted suicide. It doesn't add up.Edit: I also most certainly don't want to encourage it, suggest it or have anyone do it to prove a point. The thing is, people do it to call out for serious help. Sometimes they're ignored until this kind of thing happens and everyone looks and says - whoa! It's not a nice thing to do, when you think of what it'd do to the people around you...

Look at some of the other attempts... Choking/strangling? How the heck does one choke themselves? It is impossible, absolutely impossible. The process goes like this: You strangle yourself to the point that you pass out, when you pass out you release your grip on your throat and you begin breathing unconsciously. It's almost a built in defence mechanism. That's obviously not someone that wants to do it.

living with life long tmj, + fibromyalgia, & suffering a severe neck/back injury at work from lifting [1995] , + surgery on writing hand [carpal boss] without any relief, yes a serious attempt was made on wrists [1998].

For some it can be a cry for help, they don't know how to get somebody's attention any other way. For those who succeed in suicide I actually applaud them. I say this because it takes a lot of guts to go through with it and to make sure that you do succeed that last goal. I myself think about suicide quite often but haven't not attempted it yet because I am looking for the method that will best work for me. I currently have access to a large quantity of various powerful drugs and am thinking that this could be the answer to my own question. I just hope that when I attempt this feat, it will be my last. I'm suffering too much to continue in this life.

You guys seem pretty luck that you were able to survive your attemts and then find something to live for after wards. Did you think about what you were doing at the time? How can you attemt suicide and act like you didn't have a reason to do it afterwards?

I have thought about attempting suicide before, and come rather close, but (thank the Goddess!) never actually gone through with it. I did have some therapy once, and it helped in the short term having someone to talk to. But not much for the long term. I still get depressed, but I haven't thought about suicide much lately.

The attempt was a rather stupid one, and waking up like I did freaked me out quite a bit. I ended up refusing to talk to anybody or even leave my room... then that just freaked out my parents. They called some social workers or something who's face I never actually saw but they tried talking to me, I ignored them. Then they said they were going to call the police to take me to the hospital.Decided I'd rather not be forced somewhere by police(not sure what else I was expecting to happen... wasn't exactly thinking straight), so I at least stopped ignoring everything, but stayed in a depression for quite a while. Stopped talking to my friends, destroyed relationships, stopped going to school. Not a fun time. Family doesn't actually know why I suddenly stopped responding to anything, though. They just know I was depressed and made me start seeing a psychiatrist who never really helped.Only thing that finally helped was when I talked with pretty much the only close friend I had left and confronted some things about myself I didn't want to before, and also became Christian(not to sound preachy but it's the truth).If I did it for attention, I sure picked a shitty way of going about it. Yes, logically you'd think if you wanted to kill yourself you'd pick a simple way to go about it, but if you want to kill yourself you're usually not thinking logically(let me tell you, at the time I was pretty damn sure I was thinking logically, but guess what... I wasn't). It goes against the basic survival instinct all species have to want to kill yourself.I'd just like to say, if you're considering it, don't. Fixing the things it screws up is not easy or fun. There's always somebody out there somewhere to talk to, just might take a while to find em. (I edited out what the attempt was cause I decided I don't want to give ideas. This one's a little too simple, miracle I managed to screw it up.)

Why do people always say don't attempt suicide? How many people here read these posts then say "Wow, maybe I'll just throw away my opinion of everything and listen to this guy on a forum and stop thinking about suicide" ... I doubt there's anyone who says that.

Worth a shot, at least. Now people who haven't been there and don't know what they're talking about usually aren't any help, but I can hope it means a bit more coming from somebody who's been there.

sometimes getting atention helps and it works. So if it helps someone get through there problems theres nothing wrong with that. I myself have only throught about doing itbut to me its being weak and im not a weak person. I have mentaly hit rock bottom and pulled myself back up. So no one can say to me that "you dont know whats its like" because i do. All i can say to someone who is thinking about it is to think of one thing you wanted to do with your life befor you died and do it. All i ever wanted to be was a firefighter. And now i am. Ok i could go on and on but that would be domb. Ill be around

"Getting attention" as you say it does not always help. Ok, suppose I thought of something I always wanted to do, well guess what, it's impossible to do that. Say, for example, I wanted to be an astronaut. Considering me having diabetes... I can't. Or say I wanted to be a (professional) soccer player. Well, due to a hand condition I can't become that either. I could go on but I don't want to, you get my point.

I tried to commit suicide after my mother died. I was really depressed 24/7 for many months.So what I did was go up the roof of my school where my friend and I often go to hang out and climb up everything we can find, sat on the edge of the one part we knew was too high to jump/climb, and sat there for a long time (not sure how long) just trying to come up with something good in my life. After a long time of thinking, I realised I had only 3 things on my "good" list and alot more on my "bad" list, I jumped. I broke some bones and got a concussion (Sorry about sp) and spent alot of time at the hospital. I told my family I fell, but my friend knew what I was trying to do 'cause I had often mentioned to him that I thought about doing it.

I think about ending my life every couple of days. when I was 11/12 I was extremely suicidal but never had the guts to go through with it. I had no friends so had no one to talk to. I also got a kick out of scratching my arms with sharp objects...not cutting myself but making the skin red raw so that it burned. The ironic thing now is that i have the best friends in the world now and a really caring bf, yet i am still suicidal. Im 16 and my bf 20. he dresses diffrently to most people (we're both slightly gothic in appearance) and he had a drug problem 2 years ago, but he's the nicest guy you will ever come across, yet my mother doesn't agree. we've been seeing each other secretly for 10 months now, but the sneaking around gets me down. I also suffer from depression which doesn't help, and the only people who know are a few close friends and my bf. Sometimes I feel like I can't talk to them about this though which makes me feel even more isolated. Im afraid that il just be so down one day that ill just slit my wrists and be done with it, but im even more frightened of not doing it right as it would destroy my family as my mother is on her own. also, i worry that my bf will do something equally stupid.

Please can someone reply

I never actually went through it, but I had lots of years of contimplation. The one time I OD on drugs was on accident, I built up a toleronce and I wanted to go to sleep, I took a 2x the amount considered for an OD, I was out. Didn't want to die, just wanted to sleep so I could forget about the pain.The only thing that keeps me from ever commiting suicide is seeing the affect it has on a community. During a bad year, one popular kid commited suicide, the rumor was because his friends turned and his gf left. The thing is I barely knew the guy, and he had such an affect on me and the whole school. Two years later another school got 2 suicedes before 2nd quarter. I can never allow myself commit suicide because I have friends who are living for me. Those people saying that it's attention. It's not. Men have a higher suicide rate while women have a high suicide attempt rate. Guys use the sure things, guns, major wounds, etc. Girls have a tendency to go for drugs and cutting. If the person is found quickly they can be revived. Also most of the drugs taken are usually over-the counter, so normally less effective for a death. The weapon of choice might be psychological, who knows. but usually it is NOT about attention. For people that have been thinking about it for a long time, its a last resort. The end of hope, of being able to wake up again. A person takes their life when they have nothing to live for. A plan is reached, the weapon, the location selected, some even the day or when convenient. Those that don't have the months and years of missery, are those that are desperate. Saying its all about attention is bullshit and being an asshole. Those with a history of suicidal thoughts want the pain and misery to end, some think it is the only way out. When they do not succeed, they get the help needed. Some are saved others still feel the need to die.

That hitting rock bottom doesnt work. In 8 years I thought I hit rock bottom at least 4 times. Those were serious am I going to be able to live through this hard times. I know I'm going to have more to come. You only know you've hit rock bottom when you compare it to the past, but you dont know about the future. Floor could keep breaking. A problem with pulling out of it with using a dream. Depression kinda halters the ability to concentrate and if you cry uncontrollably or without cause, its going to halter the ability to get that dream. Especially if more school is needed.