(girl who wrote the message from 8/16/04). My friends have turned so I only have one good friend and my bf, but he's really worried about me and gets worked up if I say that Im conemplating suicide. They both care about me and have taken to phoning me every half hour to see if i 'havnt done anything stupid'. Im not looking for attension, I just need to talk to someone but havnt found the right person. I havnt even been to the docters about my depression cause my mother says that pills only mask your feelings and that we should try to find the source of the problem ourselves, but im afraid of myself. Im worried that Il just get it over with without even thinking about it. [image]http://wolf[/image]
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Suicide survivors
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i have tryed and almost made it and wish i did i tokk 30 valums drinked and my hearty stoped a couple of the times on the way to the hospital they had to shock me and shoot me up with sdrenaline and pumped my stomach no ne can sway your opion on doing it so if your going to do it that your decesition but if you need some one to talk to ask for my aim
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Tried a few times with a pistol. practiced the method. Dry-fired it into my mouth. Loaded it with two rounds. Imagined my GF having sex with that other guy. Tried to motivate/prepare myself. Couldn't. My friends, family, and the fear of God stopped me. Tried it three times. All ended the same. I can relate to the pain and wanting it to all go away NOW. But I think God has another purpose or test for us. It's been two months and it still feels like she broke up with me yesterday. Take it day by day.
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You shouldn't shoot yourself you should shoot the who's sleeping with yuor gilrfriend!jk
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physical - none .. drowning/hanging ATTEMPTSor mental - none..i still want to , your relationships with your friends/family - they dont know
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In response to the message, that people use attempted suicide as an attention getter..NO. It hard to understand the suicidal mind. At any given moment they have that option.I lost my son to suicide 4 years ago..I now facilitate a group of family and friends who have lost a loved one to suicide. 30,000 people a year take their lives..every 17 minutes someone dies of suicide. Its not always wanting to die..its wanting to stop the pain. A grieving mother..I would give my own life if I could've saved my son.
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I remember my first suicide attempt, i cut my wrist. it wasn't very deep but i do have a big scar on my right wrist. The second suicide attempt was when i overdosed on Aspirin because i had just checked out of treatment for my eating disorder, i was Anorexic/Bulimic, and my sister called me and she starts calling me "a whiny bitch" and that it was all just for attention, i just got so pissed and i found a bottle of Aspirin, took it, and then i wished i hadn't, so i ended up in the ER and they made me drink charcoal and i was shitting black for days. My family has never ever been supportive of me, i can't wait to get away from them, they are so unhealthy for me, they have no sense of boundaries and are basically menatlly disturbed people, they need lots of therapy. I used to be one of those people but 3 months in a psychiatric hospital changed my distortions about reality and people, so much that i can live happy and "normal" whatever that means.
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well i ofted dream about killing myself i am acutter and not sure what to to do it ended my last relationship with the very first guy i ever loved he turned out to be a total ass i thought i could go to him and tell him but whenever i did he got so pissed at me and it never hellped and then on my birthday i ended having the worst day ever i was going to loose the one person i looked up to in family problems so i ended up cutting wicked bad and i ended up tellin him and he flipped out and told his MOM i was like u r so fucking stupid, if my dad ever found out i would be put into a mental hospitle fuck i was screwed so i ended it i gave up the one thing i loved the most the one thing i trusted the most the one thing i could tell anything and he had to go fuck it all up when i needed him the most but thats not the point life for me has come to shit and hell thats the only thing i can say about it i just want it all to end i do often dream of suiside i could do it at anytime i have the things if i wanted to OD i have and illegale drug called oxycotten and i have a couple of those i could just take them and then take a couple shots of vodka and i'd be out or i could do it the painfull way i could just get drunk off my ass and slit my wrists and thats how i would want to go becasue i have been thro so much pain i cant belive i am still here i guess i just need help its not like i havent tried to get help tho i have but nothing has worked but i kno thats how i'll end up laying on my bed with red stained wrists and a goodbye note by my side to let everyone kno