I didn't even want to post this, but I'm on my way down.Over the last few months I've been drinking so much. It's not even become just a social activity now. I'm constantly doing it in my room.I need to drink everyday. I crave Jack Daniels as much as I do cigarettes. I've never craved alcohol before. Thing is, I'm good at hiding it. My family don't suspect a thing, apart from the empty bottles they find in my room which I just tell them "I've just saved them up". Even my friends have said I can hide my drunkeness infront of my family. There isn't an hour during the day, when I'm not on something.I'm 19. I have a good social life, a few family problems, but nothings changed for the worse since I started drinking so much. It's just I'm so bored at the moment. I've had some fantastic work opportunities which have helped my career imensely, but I've not worked for a couple of months now and it's really hard. I'm waiting for my next job. My works so important to me, I fucking love it. To not have it at the moment is really sending me down. I'm really on my way down. I always thought I'd be squeaky clean on the drink and drugs front, but no.It's 11.20am and I've already started drinking. I just tell myself it's an early lunch time drink. Lol, for fucks sake guys. Why do I do this?Wtf....
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I think I might be an alcoholic.
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It feels like everythings going to slip away.
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Hon if you are bored get out there an do something, get up, go out, make plans to do as much as you can during the day so you don't want to drink. You say you love your work, but if you carry on like this by the time work starts again you won't be able to do it without drinking too and i can't see it lasting long.Be strong, get rid of the alcohol in your room, and make plans.
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Have you considered AA, Jay18? Yes, what you're doing is classic alcoholism. It's an addiction that is easier to beat with the help of others than alone.
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perhaps go out more like Angel said or put yourself in situations or go places where the alcohol isn't so readily available.
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I think you can't blame it on alcohol being available. With alcoholism I think you first have to realize that you can't be charactered-disordered and blame your addiction on being bored, but blame it on yourself to realize that you had the choice of taking the alcohol. I know it's now repeated in your sub-conscious to take the drink but you are going to have to make the choice to stop.
I would say AA or any other help group would be good to take, like Inelligble said.
Best luck to you, post what's happening.
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I feel you. I started drinking at 9 years of age. I used to drink daily and on my days off it started are about 10 or 11 am. I used to walk around with a pint on me at all times. But some shit happien in my life where it was shown to me that i had a drug and alchohol problem. It took me about 3 years of relapesing to finnaly get it sraight. Now i have 10 month sober and alot has changed in my life. maybe not money wise but i feel good on the inside. I still want to get drunk daily, but i dont. I think i am just staying clean "just for today". Everyday i tell myself that. Because if i like i am going to be sober for the rest of my life i am like fuck that shit i NEED to dink this drink of smoke this speed. KNow what iam saying. If you want to quit then go to an AA meeting. Its better to talk and see the poeple in real life. any how hit me up if you have any questions. I have frist hand experence because i am an Addict/alcohiloic
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I feel you. I started drinking at 9 years of age. I used to drink daily and on my days off it started are about 10 or 11 am. I used to walk around with a pint on me at all times. But some sh!t happien in my life where it was shown to me that i had a drug and alchohol problem. It took me about 3 years of relapesing to finnaly get it sraight. Now i have 10 month sober and alot has changed in my life. maybe not money wise but i feel good on the inside. I still want to get drunk daily, but i dont. I think i am just staying clean "just for today". Everyday i tell myself that. Because if iam like i am going to be sober for the rest of my life i am like f#ck that sh!t i NEED to drink this shot of smoke this speed. KNow what iam saying. If you want to quit then go to an AA meeting. Its better to talk and see the poeple in real life. any how hit me up if you have any questions. I have frist hand experence because i am an Addict/alcohiloic
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i have a question how do you even get a hold of alchol how easy can it be ive always thought it to be hard to get and im glad i think that
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my parents always had it in the house and then when i was left a alone i would stand on a chair and get it. OR at family get togethers when people werent looking i would drink
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endulge in your vice until your fingers are all pruney like. so long as you do it with the pre-conceived notion that there will be severly dier consequences when your all done with it 20 to 30 years down the road. but if you truely want help then try channeling your interests toward positive activities. (i.e. sports, martial arts, music, writing, religion, excercise, etc...) the more you focus on it as a problem the more it will become a problem. just know that there is more to life than mind-altering substances. i'm still finding this out the hardway...