ok basically when i was 12 and a little of being 13 i was super geeky and i got picked on a lot at school. so i found escapism in the internet which was a bad idea because i only neglected my social life a whole lot and didnt have one. i had a few friends but all i did was spend time going on anime forums and shit...and eventually and i hate admitting this i had an 'online girlfriend' and a few more. now keep in mind i was 12, lonely, and wasnt thinking of how lame this was. obviously these wouldnt compare to real relationships, it was awkward msn flirting, and now ive built myself up, im confident, nobody picks on me and i have a lot of friends, and girls are more interested in me now ( not online either ) but i still feel pathetic for doing those geeky things 3 years ago. and whats worst of all is i didnt have girlfriends before i was 12 so if you consider those lame msn girlfriends to be actual girlfriends (i dont, but some people do, i mean when you think about it they kind of where, i dunno), my first girlfriend was online! pathetic! i know! i feel like such a loser any advice?
If you don't consider online relationships real relationships then your frist girlfriend wasn't an online one.Who cares about your past. Don't get hung up about it. You've moved on from what you consider geeky and are now more active socially.
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in, forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day, you shall begin it well and serenely..."
Being a teenager is a very awkward time and we've all done stuff that we later came to regret. There is nothing wrong with having an online girlfriend, two of my friends had online boyfriends when they were 17, and Angel met her husband online. Altho a relationship online between two 12 year olds isn't too serious, it probably meant a lot to you at the time.And don't worry about not having a girlfriend. I didn't get my first real girlfriend until I was 17. Girls are interested in you, you've probably noticed them. All it takes is a bit of effort and courage to make a move.You shouldn't feel pathetic because of your past, lots more people than you might think have gone through the same thing, many of them have gone through worse. Its in the past, soon you'll be retelling the stories of your youth and laughing.
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two of my friends had online boyfriends when they were 17, and Angel met her husband online
oh, dont get me wrong, im aware online relationships can be great, two of my british male friends met girls via myspace and msn and one is engaged ( both girlfriends are beautiful ) but its just that technically this was my 'first' girlfriend, if you consider what i had with those girls to be real relationships.
thank you for the advice and kind words though. it has put things into perspective
exact same story here man EXACT