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Well i'm new so here goes everything First up i'm 16, Live in toronto canada... Male (obviously)Anyway, Depressed really isn't the word for me... Suicidal fits a little better I'm antisocial (not by choice at all, I just lock up in social situations, Not sure why)I Had a shrink for say a week until i decided to not go any longer, According to him i'm clinically depressed...Ah now lets move on.Some of the more obvious reasons i'm depressed areAsshole parents who remind me how worthless i am any time they can...Not currently in school (went though a don't care i just want to die now stage)I have had a crush on 1 person for 2 1/2 years and haven't had the balls to ask her out yet... We hang out on and off all the time, what can i say i'm a loser Sleep issues, I can go days without sleep and it's hell :\And being depressed for the sake of it to i suppose...People tell me i'm Good looking but me being me i think i'm ugly...I have written 2 suicide notes and tried 2 times... 1 ODAnd 1 strangling...Life sucks... Well not life, But my lifeMeh i'm done ranting...

hey!

You sound a lot like me.... dunno what else to say sorry for this really dumb post I just wanted to say he sounds like me if you want delete it

That's not a dumb post, InSearch, it's a helpful thing to say. It helps a bit to know that others share your sadness.It's so difficult when parents aren't supportive.

people here have said that anti depressants have worked wonders for themhave you tried them?i dont know when you should / shouldnt use them so sorry if im suggesting a dumb obvious wrong thing here

Well I don't think the question was directed at me but I'd like to give my answer to that question... if that's ok :/I don't think much of anti-depressants. If I would somehow manage to get some how would that help ? I wouldn't be depressed anymore (maybe) but things would still be the same, so how is that supposed to help ? I just won't be depressed but instead happy about my life ? Again, delete this if it's inappropriate since the question wasn't to me.

It's not inappropriate, it's a valid question. Why treat depression?Well, first, because depression makes you feel bad. Why shouldn't you feel better? It's not really natural to feel depressed, it's a deviation from the natural feeling. It's no more wrong to take a pill to make your mood normal than it is to take a pill to relieve a headache.Second, depression robs you of your will. You'd like to do things with your life but they seem too much trouble, because of the depression. Depression is not only a distressing disease, it's a disabling one. You can't judge things accurately. If you treat the depression, you find you can do more.

Let's continue this over PM (if you want too) because this is not my thread to ask questions...

From personal and ongoing experience with antidepressants, it’s not so much that they make you feel “happy” or take away the “bad” feelings inside, but it rather helps you be able to deal with your feelings without going completely insane.A couple of months ago, I started taking beta-blockers along with the prescribed antidepressants, and I feel 200% better in myself for it. I can now wake up and feel ready to face the world, and sleep (most of the time) soundly without fear of waking up with scratches all over my face or bruises. If I do have a bad night, then it’s like I have time in my head to be able to work through it, instead of having everything jumbled up.I was always sceptical (sp) of people that take them, and that said they suffered with depression, but having gone/going through it, I can now see it in a different light.As they say, if you’ve never had it, you’ll never have a clue about it.

Anti-depressants are different for everyone, when I began taking them I was very skeptical and hoped that my parents/doctor were wrong and they wouldn't work. Now after being on them for over a year I realize how much they've helped me get through the fog that was bogging me down...i'm not saying that magically the fog was lifted, but that with the meds I could think more clearly, rationally, and thouroughly. It helped me with my grades, my relationships, and in other aspects of my life. I'm glad my parents cared about me enough to want me to be happy--even if that meant taking anti-depressants. Hope you don't completely rule them out. Good Luck!

@wildcatzu:I have totally ruled them out for many various reasons. A few of those being that I don't have many things you said you had in your post....

i hope this guy didn't go through with his sucide cause he hasnt said anything since he made this post :frowning: :frowning: :frowning:

Nope still here, Forgot the link actually Never been on legal anti-depressants... Weed, E, etc... Which are great until you Come down and feel even worse.I also think i blew it with the girl i liked, Kind of hinted at how i felt and she got all weirded out and said she had to go home... So yay me yet another reason to feel this way.Oh and it's nice to know i'm not the only one feeling this way."Standing in a crowd and still all alone inside"

Ah bloody hell that was me ^^ thought i was logged in...

I'm glad you're still here, Alone I Break.I'm glad, too, that you got the courage to hint to the girl you like about how you feel. Even if it doesn't work out, you have taken control and moved the relationship further to wherever it is destined to go. Doing something, and taking control and responsibility for your life are not easy, but they make a big difference in the way you stand with regard to the world - not just something pushed around by an uncontrollable environment, but a person who can influence (not fully, of course, none of us can do that) the world around him.You might find legal antidepressants a lot more effective than the ones you have tried. Legal antidepressants work slowly (about six weeks for full effect), but they work on the underlying mood rather than temporarily covering up present anxieties.

Yea i'm actually looking into it... Can't be healthy having a great time then get hit by an overbearing feeling of pointlessness,

We just got off the phone and were kind of angry with eachother and this happened...Nick says:This is pathetic over msn, oh well i am anyway....Been 3 years, and never had the balls to tell you in person. almost did 1 or 2 times then you started dating dar,so i put it off, then we lost contact for a while, and as sad as it sounds i never stopped thinking about you.then we started talking again and i was going to say something again, and phil came along.i don't know how to say it... especially on a fruity chat program, but i don't know if i love you, what i do know isthe only times i feel happy, or have a good time is when i'm with you... Who knows that could be what friendship feels likebut rachel. I think i love you.Nick says:Ok now i definitly don't feel well... think il go throw up or something... Happily tired says:u don have to feel unwell about feelings Happily tired says:i think ur an awesome person too Happily tired says:and i want u to be happy and to be the best u can beNick says:Can i ask you something? just a yes or no...did you ever feel the same way? Happily tired says:yea Happily tired says:at one point or anotherIt's funny in some ways i feel worse. in others the weight on my shoulders is gone. took me 3 bloody years to say something and she turned me down(she called back and explained... Diff story diff time )I made myself so nervous i actually threw up.I hoped for better, expected worse, but in the end i'm really hurting right now... End bitchfest. Never felt this way before, i've been sad,depressed,suicidal.But now i'm just numb, on the brink of crying and i don't know why... Feel dead inside, Is this normal?

It's perfectly normal to feel numb, and all those other things, and angry, and all sorts of other emotions that can come and go. It's not like in the movies, where there is a "correct" response to every bit of news. It doesn't work that way in real life.