You seem to be wrapped up in subjective experience. Meanwhile, half of all marriages (at least in the U.S. and France) end in divorce. That shows you how much subjectivity is worth. My parents' first and only marriage, however, lasted for many decades. Likewise for many of my childhood friends' parents. (Interestingly, if you knew someone's religion, you could predict with great accuracy whether they wre divorced.) I have an idea of what a sucessful marriage looks like. I still would not tell you what to do, though, because every case is so different. We barely know you, and we don't know your perspective fiance at all.I can tell you from observing failed marriages that getting married to smooth over difficulties in one's relationship is a recipe for disaster.There are statistics on what kinds of things make a marriage succeed or fail (a lot of them having to do with communication), but they won't tell you how a particular case will work out. They do provide food for thought, though. It's a big decision.