Parents were fighting for a few months a while back, was tough for me, was sick as well but with my father traveling on business 2 or so weeks a month, my parents not talking, etc., I just went on. Things with them got better, I stopped faking being OK and stuff, was hooked up to IV antibiotics for 2 weeks, having the IV in my arm fucked up what would have been a fun family get-together, wasnt able to take my drivers ed stuff when I wanted to because of that, my parents promised to help me get my car insured and registerd and get plates for it and stuff cause of all that crap, I could have gotten my licence mid-june, but because i wasnt able to take the drivers ed thing when i needed to, I had to wait till late june to finish that up. Finished that, called to schedual a licence test, soonest I could have gotten it was this week, but there wasnt enough time to get the car i need to take the test in on the road, could have schedualed it for next week, but my parents didnt want me to until the car was ready....I've asked them every day this week to call the insurance company and put the car on it or whatever needs to be done, i keep getting the "Tell your father to do it", and my dad keeps on with the whole "I will in a little while..." and goes back to work. I've worked my ass off to get the car from not running at all, to running perfectly, and they keep making excuses for me not to get my licence...theyre horrible excuses too. (You dont keep the garage neat and clean.... well no shit, its a small 1 car garage with a table saw, 2 band saws, and the contents of my grandpanrents old houses attic shoved into it, everything under the sun that we dont need, dont use, never will use, but they dont want to throw out...tool chest is full of so much random shit that theres seriously no way to keep it organized, cause my dad refuses to throw ANY of the crap in the drawers out....tell me how the fuck am i supposed to work in that garage and keep it organized. seriously. it takes a fucking 5 minute effort just to open one of the cabinets or drawers cause theres so much shit in there....)I love cars, cars are the only thing that i really enjoy...I cant say that i'll be OK without a licence cause my parents will take me to the places i want to go to (Not unreasonable either...just across town every week to a car show and i'd be happy...even if they just dropped me off and picked me up, but nooo....too busy, working, taking my brother to baseball games, taking my brother and his friends to the movies, doing this, doing that.....and when its not that excuse, its that they both dont feel good)Cant say that any of my friends could drive me or anything cause a) dont have many friends, b) the friends i do have most of them are younger than me and cant drive, or c) can drive, but drive so horribly that i know that i'd be the unlucky one and get killed in a car crash or something...So i'm stuck here at home with parents that, when home, shove me to the side and pretty much ignore me, but then get pissed off at me if i am out with friends or something and dont come home for dinner...go figure.i dont have a job, mostly cause i have no way of getting there or going out to look for a job. they expect me to be able to find a job from home. Well, i could do that, i could make money fixing cars or cleaning cars, but hey...no licence = no way of doing that. i have talked to them and they just push me aside and its pissing me off. Its like I have all these goals I want to reach, things I want to do, things I CAN do, but have no way of doing them....when its not that i cant get from here to there or whatever, its that i get no support at all, everyone tries to tell me i cant do it or that it cant happen. Well how the fuck do other people do it? they go out there and do it! they want to do it, and they do do it! how is it impossible! ITS NOT FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE! here I am a good kid who stays out of trouble, never drinks, never does drugs or smokes, gets OK grades (2 weeks out of school on IV antibiotics doesnt exactly help things in that sense), has goals that can easily be reached if you try, but everyone trys and talkts you out of it and does everything they can to preventing you from doing it.....I've tried hard for years to not let anyone talk me out of anything i want, but i think its starting to have an effect....maybe theyre right....it makes me sad....all these dreams and goals and just thinking of dying without reaching any of them.... i could do it, i know i could....but i dont know if i can get by everyone whos stopping me from reaching them....I dont want to give up, but I'm having a real hard time keeping myself wanting to do anything...i feel like theres no point to life if i cant do what i want...i dreamd of my life in the future, what i would do, how i would get there.....but now its looking like everything that could get in the way is getting in the way....Sorry for such a long post....not really expecting replies, but i've got noone to talk to, no friends that i can trust, no family that i can talk to about it....pretty pathetic when all you've got is a computer to talk to.....