I guess first of all some background is rather necessaryAlmost 3 years ago now i was attempted suicide and failed.My parents had me sent to the insane asylum claiming i was a liability to myself and others around me. ( Although i am now rather aware it was more due to there inability to deal with "it" )I spent 18 days there and up until now i have never spoken about what happened there, but 18 days left a fair imprint on me. Even to the friend who helped me to leave 18 days into a 6 month sentence.Anyway the first day i was there i met a girl, she was the only person i really spoke with there and i literally stuck like glue to her. She seemed perfectly ok.I really tried (try) not to think about it , and have managed to completely avoid it until the other day it came up with a very close friend of mine when we were talking about our best and worst childhood memories. Since our conversation i am really struggling to sleep as every time i do i have this memory of one of the girls who i met there.The Dream is exactly as i saw it then :The girl who i mentioned just above being dragged down the corridor by 2 of the wardens and she is screaming and crying and struggling against them. To receive shock therapy.This really is just coming back to haunt me but its really affecting me far more than i thought it would, i really thought that 3 years after i would have gotten over it and yet i really can't seem to.
Coming Back to Haunt me.
I suggest letting the past be the past.This happened 3 years ago, right? Did the place do anything good for you? Do you still think about attempting suicide? If not, then I think you should just let it go. Easier asid than done, I know, but that's the best advice I have at this second.