What should I do???

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I'm posting this for help on a certain topic! I'm on the brink of suicide!!! I've been resisting the urge the last few days! I'm never satisfied with myself and really never pleased with anything I do! Please give your opinion on what I should do!

Depending on your age.

If your in college some colleges offer free counciling.
All schools (to my knowledge) offer some form of Icare program.

Here is a link with at least one suicide hot line in South Africa. Call one a.s.a.p.

Hey, You can also PM if you just want to vent. Just another option, we don't want anyone dying on us, not even a brand new member.

Hi RuLeR, welcome to A2A.Remember that depression is a disease that makes you misjudge the world. Good things seem much smaller, less important, and less common than they realy are, while bad things seem much bigger, more important, and more common than they really are. So it's well worth getting it properly treated.Remember also that you are not required to be perfect. Try to resist perfectionism - it's bad and anti-creative. We are all flawed and our work is flawed, but it's still well worth doing!

Another user posted but, I think it deserves reinforcement.Feel free to message people on the board if you want.Pretty much anyone here is willing to listen and most have good advice.

I dunno what to think about this guy...

But I know if I flat out said "ths is fake" people would jump down my throat. Oh well

You guys have more experience on this then I do.. any particular reasons why yall feel that way about it?

I dunno, I can just tell.

It's kinda sad, really... either it's a sick joke, or he needs attention.

I think I get what your saying..Usually when you have some depression invovled there isn't the tone of excitement..As to depression I don't know.. maybe. Seems a bit excited to be depressed..*edit. Then again I take most things for face value.

The more I read the Topic Creator's post, the more fake it seems.I've never had an urge to kill myself for several days. That's not how it works."I'm never satisfied with myself and really never pleased with anythign I do"That just sounds fake"Please give your opinion on what I should do"That's not really how you end a post showing people how bad you want to kill yourself.

Hmm thanks. I also see what you mean.. depression can last a while.. but, odds are after a few days you would have acted on the urge if you hadn't already got help.

IneligibleThanks for the advice. I really think I'm depressed 'bout mistakes I made in the past weeks. Your advice on perfectionism is true as I AM a sufferer of perfectionism.Thanks PS to all viewers, the post isn't made as a joke

How old are you?I'm guessing you're just depressed from whatever mistakes you made in the past few weeks. I doubt you're suicidal at all. Depressed, if anything...Which isn't cool either. If you need some help, you might have to describe what these mistakes are and all that

@ Nyn i'm not going to say if he is a or isn't a fake.i'm going to say this tho.. out of all the times i tryed i only PMed once. I PMed pete..... i don;t remeber wut i said to him but i never said anythign about wut i was thinking.. i dk why i did it really. I didn't try right after i PMed him eihter it was latter in the evening (when i was alone and didn't think no one would find me) I know every time I have..... no one knew. But everytime i think about it and it hasn't go to that level ( i dk.. i guess there is levels..i dk how to put it really) i talk about it or try to hint it.. ..it's kinda confusing and ever harder to explaine. like when i PMed pete... i overdosed on pills and whent into a coma and he had no idea i was even thinking about it. but then there are times when i tell him wut i feel like doing to off myself... i don't get it myself. i just know it has to do with your (my) mindset......

Sadly, I get exactly where you're coming from.Can't say I've ever PMed anyone while/after/before trying it, but that's mainly because I'm usually not around a PC or something (I was alone in a hotel room one time, and on the spur of the moment decided to see how much insulin I could give myself before something happened.... turns out, I can give myself a LOT without anything happening) ....However, I've talked to someone plenty of times when feeling real down and just thinking "Fuck it, I'll just end it" but I never did anything besides just talk... looking back, I would say it actually helped me just to say "I wanna die" a few times, because after I said that I would go into some deep conversations with the person I was talking to, which basically distracted me enough to not feel like I want to kill myself in the next minute.Needlses to say, I wouldn't be here typing this if it weren't for that person. Thanks, you know who you are.