I was going on a weekend holiday with my friends. Both of my friends are with boyfriends so they kept making jokes that they were going to set me up with guys which they always joke about.On the bus trip we met a couple of guys one who I was flirting with. We ended up sitting together and we started mucking around physically. I also began touch his stomach which I was fine with until I felt my friends hand on the other side. I immediately withdrew and began to feel embarrassed at the fact that he had both of us. But he wanted both of us still and kept pressuring me to touch him which I kept refusing. He also began to touch me more even though I was clearly trying to get away. We were now right near the end of the bus trip so he groped my breast under my shirt even though again was away. Off the bus I was outraged that I let him take advantage of me once I clearly didnt want him. Later in the night I stayed in my cabin to avoid him while my friends went off drinking with the guys we met. I would have delt with this fine except that my friend came back with him where they were naked in bed together. This was so unlike her character particularly since she was cheating on her boyfriend who she truely loves. The next morning she severly regretted her decision. She ended up telling her boyfriend and they are still together but they both asked me and our friends not to tell anyone back home what happen to avoid embarrassment. The thing is it has also ment that I had no one to tell about how violated I was on the bus particularly that my friend doesnt realise that he was feeling me up while she was feeling him up. I dont want to make her feel any worse than she feels and I dont want to tell the others since they would look down on her even more. What made it worse was that when he left and later in the day despite our close relationship she denied doing anything that would cause any alarm. It wasnt until I revealed what I knew that she confessed. I feel really aweful that she couldnt tell me but at the same time I understand that its her guilt acting, she doesnt want to admit what she did was wrong living in denial. Thank you for listening to my comment. I know its long but i really needed to get it off my chest and couldnt tell anyone I knew for obvious reasons.
An interesting bus trip
that is pretty messed up, ive been in your position before, but it was slightly different. no one told me not to tell anyone, i chose not to, so im not gonna go into details here. if i were you id just try to forget about it, thats not something you want haunting you forever. trust me. i understand that you feel violated and all, and that you're probably way different from me, so if you really need to talk to someone about it make sure its someone you can trust with your life. it probably wouldnt be good to keep it all bottled up inside
yikes. thats quite a story.I would recommend trying to find some sort of positive outlet for your frustrations if you don't already ahve one.Sorry if the advice is a bit generic however, I really can't say I know much about how to handle that particular kind of situation.As said before don't dwell on it. However, keep something in mind. Its your FRIEND who screwed up not you.