My drug of choice

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Hi Everyone!! I hope you're feeling dandy!!Some people 'run away' from themselves [Their problems, etc.] by using alcohol, drugs, sex, food, etc. [The list is almost endless] My 'drug' of choice [So I've most recently come to realize] is PEOPLE. More specifically - other people's problems. I have done this all my life. I have always taken on the responsibility of trying to make other people feel better about themselves. So much so - that I have neglected myself. Or at least that's how I WAS. In just the last few months - little 'bells' have been going off [Or 'lights' coming on - if you prefer!!] and I'm FINALLY starting to realize that maybe - just maybe - I matter too. My 'drug of choice' [Like all 'drugs'] is a powerful force in my life. It's making me feel guilty and selfish - as though I'm neglecting my 'responsibilities' by caring about ME. I certainly don't plan on NOT doing my best to help others - but I MUST learn to accept that I have a RIGHT to take care of ME TOO. Oddly enough - if my goal really IS to help others - I'll be in a better position to do so if I DO take better care of ME. How ironic. Can any of you relate to this?!GREAT BIG HUGCraig!!

Absolutely! I'm very much the same way. I like talking to other people about their problems because it lets me forget about my own problems this way I don't have to face them. Don't get me wrong I really do love talking to people and helping them out, it's just an added "bonus" that I get to ignore my own problems.

Granted this is not a good thing I know, I just find it hard to face my problems... brings up too much hurt. I have been told by several different doctors that I should speak to a therapist but I always find a good excuse like "I don't have the money", granted my insurance sucks so it's not like it's a full blown lie LoL.

Anyways yes I can certainly relate to your "Drug of Choice" :smile:

My drug of choice is a night with mary jane.
shes the stand in when I cant get the best drugs, adrenaline.
I dnt spend alot of time with her just here and there a few times a year. While I seek out people at a party and love attention, I tend to spend alot of time alone when not in a social setting. I love my alone time and spend a few weeks each year alone in teh widlerness in a tent with a couple of books and a fishing pole. winter camping is great for it, I most often find myself alone during winter while only a few miles from the trail heads.
Iv never been attacked by a bear but have seen them while up ther, the worst experience Iv had was with a moose in my camp at about 3 am. once that sun goes down though and the temps drop and darkness close in its a whole different world and I get plenty of adrenaline at every noise I hear outside my tent or off a ways into the trees.

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What you're describing is not my drug of choice, it just happens to me. People come up to me and just talk about their problems and I just solve them for them whenever it happens.

Drug of choice is and always will be: THC

Hello 'me'! How's it goin'?I say that because that's exactly how I am. I've always felt obligated to 'help' others long before I even think of helping myself (I've always felt guilty for even thinking of putting myself before others). It's like if I can swoop in and save the day, for just a moment I can forget about myself and my 'problems'. Why deal with my own issues when I can help fix someone else's? has been my train of thought has been for years. I've just recently been trying to break the cycle. I can def. relate to you hon.

Hi NtroducingMyself!! I hope you're having a great day!! I love talking to people too. AND I love having the opportunity to help - whenever I can. The problem for me has always been an issue of balance. To all but completely ignore ME and focus almost entirely on someone ELSE - is not healthy. I just end up feeling used. And it's my fault. There is a quote that I love. I don't know who said it - but it describes exactly how I've always felt. It goes something like this..."Loneliness is not about being alone. Loneliness is about NOT BEING KNOWN!!" Take care of yourselfGREAT BIG HUGCraig!!

Hi Katie Lou!! 'Me' is fine. How is YOU!! lol Thanks for taking the time to respond.You said that you have just recently been trying to break the cycle. ME TOO. And I'm talking within the past few months. Took long enough!! I just wish I didn't feel so guilty about it. Taking care of me makes me feel selfish. Intellectually - I know that's silly. But 'Little Craig' [The kid inside of me] is very stubborn and hangs on to 'things' making it difficult for me ['Big Craig'] to change how 'we' feel about ourselves and those around us. But... given enough time - I'm sure 'Little Craig' will learn to trust 'Big Craig' and allow 'him' to take over and decide where 'we' are going to next. [If that makes any sense]GREAT BIG HUGCraig!! PS I also appreciate the responses from Grvtykller and StillSearching.