What is up....

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With ME...Not on here alot, because I have abandoned this place for AA. (online of course...lol)Anyway, giving it a shot. My drinking has slowed WAY down. No more 6pack a day plus kind of drinking, more like 2 or 3 a week. (no, not 6packs, drinks period). Its something that has been an issue since I came here, but the criticism can be too much to handle!So for anyone who thinks I don't love ya all, I do. Just trying to find my own life again.Garden addiction is taking over again too. That will wisk me away during the summer besides the hottest part of the day.

Thanks Rad. I dropped it around here because I got so much harshness about it.I have learned alot about how alcohol can physically change the way the body functions, especially if your predisposed. Alkies, don't need some one to thrash on em when they are looking for help!Not even sure if I am alcoholic (like the desease, or if I am just an over drinker), but it has to be a good thing to be sober more than not right?

It's good that you are getting on top of it, Pepsi. That's a great achievement.

Your right, but being alcoholic, is something of a character flaw too if you will.It is used to hide from stuff. Over drinking is too. But, over drinkers can lose the alcohol, with minimal help...alcoholics need a life style change...

Thats really great. It is a hard hard thing to get the guts up to do that. Alcoholism runs in my family too. My brother was one of the worst ones. He hasn't drank in 4 months and there is a HUGE difference in the way he acts and is much happier. Our relationship has never been better.

Im really proud of you.

Go superwoman!

Congrats on slowing down! That is a big step. While I miss seeing you around here, I'm glad you are taking care of yourself. big hugs....and licks

Good fucking job!
Its been a bit since I had ad rink myself, and just to give you some hope, I didnt do the six a day, I was shit faced from the time I woke up till I passed out at night, a 6 pack is what I drank on my 45 minute ride home from work, at work I kept a flask of vodka, and a bottle to refill it with, it was normal for me to get home and pound a 5th in an hour, and Id go through a fifth and then some in a 10 hour work day, plus drink on my way to work.
I never got caught, I never lost a job over it, I was a fully functional alchy.
That was like 3 years ago, I slowed down after that, but didnt stop.
the last time I had a single drink was in august, the 18th to be exact, it was my brothers birthday and I had 3 beers in about 5 hours at his party, then walked home (He lives about 2 minutes from me on a bike, less than a cigarette away walking and about 20 seconds in a car, its not a big deal to walk back and forth, I often take the dog when I go to see him just to get out).
On new yeasr I had a swallow of a mudslide and it made my stomach turn over. a fucking mudslide? From someone that used to slam a fifth of vodka straigh with no chaser and no mixer in so short a time? yup, it doenst even taste good anymore, and I dont care.
It gets easier, I never intended to stop drinking, it jsut sorta happened, and the biggest difference was Julie. She had rum instead of vodka but was the same way and skipped the beer, it was always rum for her.
she quit too, and having her there to help me and be with made it all easier.
we didnt start out to stop, it just sorta happened.
You have a man now that helps you and loves you, use him to help with this as well and at this point in time, I dont even think about a drink, it never occurs to me to buy a beer and Im always offered one adn have no trouble saying no.
Im a fucking alcoholic, and I know it, always will be, its easier to skip it all then to go back to what I was, and honestly these days it doenst bother me to not drink, most the time. There are days, like dealing with Julies x, especially since her oldest said fuck you and moved in with us and hs dad is being a prick and threatening shit but wont back his mouth up and meet me that i really want a drink ( or maybe some milk laced with drugs) and some good old fashioned ultra violence, but under normal shit, it doesnt even bother me, I jsut stay out of bars, and dont keep booze in the house.
It gets better pepsi, it really does and it doesnt take that long to get over the shakes and the need for it.
We stopped with no outside help, if AA helps you then use it!
from one alcoholic to another, Good luck!

Thanks everyone, you really do a heart good!and Chance, I getcha! I drink beer, so I had some vodka about 8days out, puked. I NEVER puke. 5 times in my whole life, and only 3x from drinking, once was because I was in the Rockies (about 9,000ft) for the first time, AND tried smoking pot...the other was cause I mixed, and then this time.The manthing is a GREAT asset to it. Plus, we just bought a durango, my drinking habit, cost more than the payment! At least sober I can drive it! YAY!