Scrathing And Biting

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ok... so imma lil tipsy right now, so forgive the misspelliungs yoiu should already know how i write but yeac anywayswhy is it dat im soio turned on by gettin bitten, and scratched...like i want datx shit to bleed, i want her to peel off thea words on muh back wjith her finger nalis...is thdere any perticular reason for this, or am i justa frek? lol sorry but i juss been thinking iabout it for a bit...

im soooo fuckinn tipsy rigth now.... like i told ole girl that i fucked wit before that if she finna keep dat baby.. that im finna be there, cause i aint no fcked up nigga that aint finna leave dey kid round da way over no stupid shit like her gettin preg off a one night ya dig...i feel real bad dat so many of yall dislike me, cause its like i think so different than most niggas, my mind is like crazy... i got thoughts that no dude my age be thinkin bout...and im sorry for any bullshit that i be sayin, ill admit that some shit do seem a bit farfetched when i be readin yall posts and all dat... but fa real... i got so much love fa yall... my life been so hard... and i gotta place ta vent here at a2a, and most niggas dont understand it ya dig...i drank bout 2/3 a bottle of dat killa quila, an a bottle of hypnotiq... i hope yall folk dont be thinkin differently of me...my mind is on such a higher level den most niggas at 17... and dats what m name grownpastmyyears means...i love all yall fuckin people... bujt all i can do is wish i get the love back...dont take anything i say for granted... its always much love...

可哀そうだな？

Subtitle: This is pathetic, isn't it?

You need to get your act together.

i dont see whats so bad? its not like i came on here and started talking shit about everyone... although, im sorry if anyone got offended by the way i talked... but thats how i talk, and i dont say nigga inna derogatory way, just a term of endearment towards my friends and fellow brothers, its just how i grew up...

i really do appreciate what you wrote to me :-) imma really try to take ur words to heart, and act them out... i think i just needa get out this habit that i have... if im insulted i fight back and such...its like a courtyard type attitude, ya know... you cant bitch up, or you become somebodies bitch... :-) thank you for being positive towards me...

oh sorry that i missed what u wrote... i have tattood on my back... "Made In The" across the top most part of my back, where the base of my neck is...

and then across my upper back, about 2/3rds up from the bottom of my shoulder blades County and then on the bottom of my shoulder blades, Dade, and the word Of in between them..

all in all it says Made In The County Of Dade

i was born in dade county, and my momma took me from there when i was like 3-4, we ended up drivin towards alaska, but our van got all the money stolen out of it while we were staying in california (it was somewhere my mom wanted to go see before we went to alaska) they did a news story on us, which i think we still have the video somewhere in this apartment.a hmeless shelter saw it, got in contact with my mom (we had been living in the van for about a week) and we ended up staying there for about a year or so... till the government gave my mom a something check, for like 13 thousand dollars. we moved into another ghetto ass neighborhood in california, but its like... no matter how far i was from florida, i always kept it in my heart...in california i was consistently picked on cause of my weight, color, race, stature, looks, the way i talk, anything they could find different about me, they harassed me about it...so i got inna lot of fights, and no matter how hard someone beat me, they could never take the love that i have for my hometown away...i goto florida, i go back to my home. and everyone there accepts me, everyone there loves me, for who i am... there are so many diverse races, u cant sit there and hate them all, cause you'd only be friends with yourself...thats why i have that on my back, so that no matter where i am, i will always be able to say that i was "Made In The County Of Dade" ill take a picture of it some day soon and upload it, we really should have a thread about peoples tattoos and there meanings in like the general board...

maybe u should get made in the county of dade on your back :-P

ur not going to prefer right on the ocean when global warming kicks in... how bout i buy u a house on the coast of mexico, or brazil :-D and we can both go there and hang out!!! brazilian women drive me crazy... miami ink is really expensive though... i asked them to do the tattoo i have on my right arm (this was before it was done, and its a tribal sun type thing) and they were trying to charge me 1.5 thousand for it... them dudes is crazy!!!

You don't see what's so bad? Really?  Quote:but thats how i talk, and i dont say nigga inna derogatory way, just a term of endearment towards my friends and fellow brothers, its just how i grew upYou're a hypocrite...  Quote:in california i was consistently picked on cause of my weight, color, race, stature, looks, the way i talk, anything they could find different about me,If you want to use the "N" word, fine. But it's kinda hypocrital if you're crying about how people picked on you because of your race but you turn around and use a derogatory racial term that offends your race. And you using that term to refer to your friends shows a lack intelligence and respect.A teacher in high school said this: Kids would refer each other as "fool", as in "What's up, fool?". He thought it was stupid because how can you call each other friends if you're using a condensending word to refer each other instead of their names? It was also stupid because the other person would allowed to be called a fool or anything else. It shows a lack of self-respect. So, in a sense, it was true; they were all fools.Very sad, indeed.  Quote:like i told ole girl that i fucked wit before that if she finna keep dat baby.. that im finna be there, cause i aint no fcked up nigga that aint finna leave dey kid round da way over no stupid shit like her gettin preg off a one night ya dig...You said you learned from being "ignorant" enough to have unprotected sex, but here you are now talking about getting girls pregnant. You talk so big about how you can control your penis, but apparently, you have no self-control or common sense. They are called condoms, they are not hard to find. And if you don't have any, then don't have sex. It's as simple as that. What's so hard to understand?What's even more screwed up is you helped get a girl pregnant but you don't have much to offer if she decides to keep the baby. You mentioned you have a job, but will it be enough? If you think your life is bad now, wait until you have a kid. Now this is my personal opinion, but what's even more screwed up is you got some other girl pregnant (from what you wrote) and it's not your girlfriend, whom you love so much.  Quote:i drank bout 2/3 a bottle of dat killa quila, an a bottle of hypnotiq... i hope yall folk dont be thinkin differently of me...You're falling further and further down. How long until you hit rock bottom?  Quote:my mind is on such a higher level den most niggas at 17... and dats what m name grownpastmyyears means...Let's see, you're having unprotected sex and getting girls pregnant, you're not in high school, and now you're getting drunk. Oh yeah, you're sure grown past your years...please, don't make me laugh.It's so sad to see someone as young as you already going to hit rock bottom. Get your act together. Seriously. Or else, your life is only going to get more difficult and you have no one to blame but yourself.

why do you always have to be so damn negative to me!!! I SAID THAT I FUCKED UP VIRTUAL! IS THAT NOT ENOUGH!!! I DONT FUCKING LIKE MY LIFE HOW IT IS! AND I HAVE ALOT OF PROBLEMS AND YOU DONT HELP WHAT SO EVER!!!NIGGA and NIGGER are two different words, you wouldnt know that cause of the way you grew up...nigger is a deragotory way, and we even fuck up black people for using that wordmy ancestors, or predecessors whatever you'd like to call them, embraced the word, they said "you know what, them crackers wanna call us a nigger, fuck it den, we'll flip it, and use it as a friendly phrase" theres nothing disrespectful about calling your close friend a nigga, its like you calling a friend buddy... you just dont understand the concept...LETS NOT ALSO FORGET THA FACT THAT I WAS FUCKING TIPSY/DRUNK!they picked on my race for being cuban and black, but being light skinned... cholo mexicans dont believe in interrace couples, nor babies...we already talked about this situation with this girl that is "pregnant" i dont even know if its mine, all i know is she is trying to get me caught up with it... like ive told u beforeits fucked up that instead of helping someone you insult them and push them down lower...im already stressed out and emotionally fucked up about the situation, i dont want to be my father or step father, they beat me and my mom, and they tried to beat my sisters I STEPPED IN AND PROTECTED THEM!!! you have me in fucking tears, because no matter how hard i try, im always put down, in life, even on the fucking internet... its really difficult for me, and only rad and ineligible are here for me

Virtual_Star, your tone comes across as supercilious and "holier than thou". It's not hypocritical to blunt a term of abuse by using it yourself. It's actually a practice with a fine tradition.

Looking down your nose at other people because they drink, or for any other reason that you think makes them beneath you, is not a good look. None of us are free from the beams in our own eyes.

Quote:NIGGA and NIGGER are two different words, you wouldnt know that cause of the way you grew up...No they are not. One is just the sugar coated verson of the other. Anyone can tell you this.  Quote:my ancestors, or predecessors whatever you'd like to call them, embraced the word, they said "you know what, them crackers wanna call us a nigger, fuck it den, we'll flip it, and use it as a friendly phrase" You do know I'm not going to believe that, right?  Quote:theres nothing disrespectful about calling your close friend a nigga, its like you calling a friend buddy... you just dont understand the concept...Feel free to continue believing that. Whatever helps blind you from the truth to make you happy.  Quote:LETS NOT ALSO FORGET THA FACT THAT I WAS FUCKING TIPSY/DRUNK!That's not an excuse.  Quote:its fucked up that instead of helping someone you insult them and push them down lower...I'm not trying to push you lower. All I'm doing is telling you what I see from what you type. And if you can't see that, then you can't help yourself. If you don't own up to all these mistakes you're making, you're only going to sink further down. Take all these mistakes, learn from them, and better yourself. No one is going to do this for you. You need to do it yourself. Crying in the corner about how bad your life is isn't going to do shit.How do you expect to help others if you can't help yourself?  Quote:you have me in fucking tears, because no matter how hard i try, im always put down, in life, even on the fucking internet... its really difficult for me, and only rad and ineligible are here for me Then try harder. You think I'm bad? Wait until you get to the real world.

Quote:Virtual_Star, your tone comes across as supercilious and "holier than thou". It's not hypocritical to blunt a term of abuse by using it yourself. It's actually a practice with a fine tradition.I seriously disagree.  Quote:Looking down your nose at other people because they drink, or for any other reason that you think makes them beneath you, is not a good look. None of us are free from the beams in our own eyes. A kid drinking because he has problems is something I can never have empathy or sympathy for. I was once seventeen and still have problems, but I don't fool myself into doing something that helps the mind escape reality. Sorry, but that's all I can really say.ADDED: Originally Posted By: RadecklOut of everything he's ever said on this board, I don't think there's any truer statement than this:  Originally Posted By: GrownPastMyYearsi love all yall fuckin people... bujt all i can do is wish i get the love back... Like I said earlier, he's going to need to try harder. It shouldn't really matter what I say anyway since I'm never going meet this guy or have our lives intertwine. But I personally am just not that easily forgiving or "soft" for anyone I can't see myself respecting. I can force it but I'd be lying to myself.

Im not going to come into this thread and bash you, im not going to tell you whats wrong in your life or what your doing wrong in your life, because you know thAt whole story yourself, because your living it. Im coming in here to tell you that i respect you. Some people here have a bad perception on you, but i have myself have and i still am living a horrible life. Ive been through alot myself, and i know what its like to fight to survive everyday. I know what its like to live a nightmare. I understand what you are going through, because i myself have been there done that. Maybe not the same situations but situations that are similar enough to where i can relate to you.You have my support bro, and i like you. If you ever need to talk about shit you can message me, youve got me on your myspace friends list, you know how to get in contact with me. You can anytime you need to. Goodluck brother, i hope shit turns around for you.-Much Love MMA

Quote:Yeah, I love you, too!But, you do need to quit drinking and doing drugs.Get your life straight and get back in school.Vent on A2A all you need, but quit giving all those quacky comments & advice that harms. You know, once you've given some bad advice, it's hard to take it back!I'd love to see all your dreams come true and maybe, someday they will.But, for now, you need to be a learning kid and get an education.Listen to some people in here and quit arguing so much just to try to prove them wrong.Just do the best you can. That's all we can ask.{{{HUGS}}} I totally agree with this. There is nothing more I can add to Rad except good luck GPMY!

I'm usually on your side, especially when it comes to GPMY, but he's... kind of right. Words only carry the meaning that we bestow to them...

I think you dislike him so much, that you constantly feel the need to bring him down =/ Let it go.

ditto

thank you, for what you wrote... sure there only a combination of letters, vowels, and syllables, but when added with correct spacing they make up words and statements... and what you wrote means alot to me...but im still a lil shocked at this part...  Quote: I'm usually on your side, especially when it comes to GPMY, but he's... LONG PAUSE kind of right.

If you need anything, I'm here. And pretty good at not judging from post to post.