My Ex-fiance and I broke up about 4 months ago and i've taken it very very hard. We were suppose to be married this coming October and the way things ended on Easter,I should feel happy were broken up. He's been so harsh and curel towards me in the last months of our relationship and so degrading its unimaginable but yet somehow through all of the bad and all the nights he sent me home crying, I can only see the good times and happy times. I've tried hating him and remembering the way he hurt me physically and emtionally but everytime I do I automatically think of the really fun times we shared. I have my mini breakdowns, where I scream out his name and cry wondering why he broke his promise and isn't here for me like he said he always would, sometimes I grab my pillow and if I close my eyes hard enough I can feel his hug, touch and kiss again. I know if he were to come back right now and tell me he's sorry and he wanted me back I'd fall for it and jump right in again even though he will only hurt me more. He played with my heart in the last 3 months of our relationship and told me we were broken up, made me degrade myself to make himself happy and then put me down again and apologized making me fall back in his little love triangle. I know that would happen again if he were to take me back but knowing that I still would take him back, my heart calls for his name. It hurts like a knife through my heart...while his was just filled with hate and hurt and meanful actions making it seem like he never loved me at all. Does this mean what I had for him was true love? I never felt this way about a guy before, previous boyfriends I've had I was over them in matter of week or two, or directly after the break up I hated them. Neither is happening to my ex fiance, perhaps maybe it is true love, and can I find another true love again? I've heard the saying you only have "ONE" true love but is it possible to have "Two" true loves? I'm so afraid that I lost my only true love and I'll never find that again.
Is It possible to have more then 1 true love?
I think people are compatible with more than one person, so yes, I think it's possible.
Considering the way you say he treated you, maybe he wasn't your true love. True love should be equal, it sounds like (by how he treated you and how you didn't treat him) you loved him more that he loved you...or at least in a different way that doesn't cause another pain.
I dont think he was your true love Im sorry. If he was he would have appreciated you and made you happy.. WANTED to make you happy.. not make you feel like shit and feel anything other than loved. You didnt deserve his games.I think it's best if you try and forget about him all together. Having him in your mind is not healthy for you. Its pushing you back when you should be moving forward. Try meeting other guys:). Its fun to flirt;)!
there's no such thing as a true love, that's fairytale stuff.
Love is Love, you either love some one, or you don't. You can choose what to do with it from there.