Rant,Rant,Rant

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Hey this is some stuff io just need to get off my chest, kinda embarresed sayin it though but just wonderin if anyone feels that same, No replies are necicary, but inputs are always nice, kinda contradictgory i kno but i dont kno how to explain it anyother way, hmm lol everyone can reply but its not necicary (plz excuse the spelling!) aaha thats better! anyways im just ranting about how i feel on the topic of losing your virginity and finding the right person to lose it to, im kinda a depressed though as people my age(17)can be very imature as you all can imagine heh cause everything is about image and most people dont do things from the heart . Well i was going to lose my virginity to this girl but in the end i didnt go through with it because at that time before i took that step forward i had an epiphany and it occoured that i didnt want to do it with this women as nice as see was it just didnt feel right and if i had gone through with it i felt as though i would regret it for the rest of my life( as exreme as that sounds) any one else feel that way? im really depressed cause it just seems taht i cant find that special someone out there :*( all the women i meet were only interested in physical realation ships, i dont want do just "do it" i, as cheesy as this sounds coming from a guy,i what to make love the that special someone out there to be able to hold her, tight and wisper in here ear "ï love you", lol (Extremely embarrased about these things)i kno some might think oh yea just some fantasy some kid though up but im just askin if anyone wants to reply is there anyone else that feels that way out there ho have lost or havent lost their virginity yet u kno cause im kinda wondering if ill ever find someone who feels the same way as me out there or did it spring from just a physical relation ship, is it really that bug a deal or am i just being a prude looking for the non existant? the main reson i am askin all about this is that i was in love with some one u can call it puppy love as i was younger than what i was today but i seriously was in love, some people might say oh a boy that age cant be in love well i feel that i was cause i gave up everything for this girl back at the time just to try to be with her to try and get her to look at me with her soft gaze to be albe to hold her and that moment meant the world to her and i, we were planning to ..... but then she brakes it off sayin sorry i found some one else, seriously i though she was the one but things turned out differently heh funny thinkg isnt it anyway i told this because i wanted to ask is it really stupid and hopeless to wait for ur true love? thanks guys i feel alot better after saying this and even though i got questions in there no replys are necicary :3 but u can if u wanto

I can't see anything wrong at all with wanting love and not just sex, and you should find many many many women who hold the same view.Of course it's important to recognise at the same time that any other person is not going to be 'perfect' - true love also includes coping with the things in the other person that you can't stand.

awh thats cute.

If you want to wait, good for you. I know I rushed into things, and I still "regret" it, but I'm moving on from all that and focusing on the present and not past mistakes. Girls can play with your head a lot so be careful not to get carried away if you are wanting to be in love with someone before you lose it. I wish I'd waited, but then again most people my age have lost it, and I've never felt "in love". Good luck though, I hope you find that special lady.

Well, I was lucky that my first time, although the relationship has since ended, was very special and although we did rush it a bit, th actual act was very special and memorable for both of us, I still keep in contact with her and she's told my many times that she'll always remember it and it ment alot to her.