I don't know whats going on with me..

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Okay well there's a few things going on with me right now. Lately my self-image has been really bad. Lately when i look in the mirror i get sad really of the person i see, it's like i can't find anything good about myself, i'm too skinny, my hair looks shitty, i hate my nose, and some other things. But then the next day i can feel soo good about myself, like i'm the best looking guy etc. And i love it, i love it when i feel that way about myself. And because of my self-image problem i started to get these crazy mood swings. I noticed this on sunday at work, i woke up fine, i went to work fine, and then i just thought about myself, or i looked at these spots i have on my arms that won't go away when i had eczema, and i just got stressed and i got in a really bad pissy/sad mood, i wasn't talking i wasn't smiling, nothing, and since i'm so self-concious it makes things even worse. And then like 20 minutes later, i was smiling and talking about my night out the previous day to this girl i work with. It was an on going thing for the whole entire day. Sad then happy, sad then happy. And then when i got home my parents were having a barbeque with a bunch of family and i just sat in my room the whole day, i felt really depressed. And on top of everything i'm was having some problems with my dad, and that just makes it even more worse. I'm just really worried for myself if i keep going on like this. I mean this morning i was basically telling myself that i wanted to kill myself, i don't know what the hell is going on with me. I mean right now i feel fine i feel happy. I feel like i have double-personalities or something. I'm just really confused, i want to feel happy and i want to feel good about myself, i hate having these highs and lows. Idk i need help..

Strong rapid mood swings are common in adolescence and may have to do with the brain coping with hormone levels, though no-one really knows. If it continues for too long (but only then) it can be considered to be cyclothymia or bipolar.I don't know that it helps much, but you are certainly far from alone in feeling like that.

You think i need to take something like zoloft for this? I mean i hate being like this, i always have felt like this but it's gotten even worse now. I just want to be happy and feeling good about myself, not feeling shitty and depressed all the time..

Is there a family history of depression or bipolar?

I wouldn't recommend taking zoloft. My mom who used to be on it and said that it caused her to gain a lot of weight. She told me before she started zoloft she was 135lbs and then she went up to 160lbs while on zoloft and now that she stopped she has slimmed down to 125lbs. So unless you're really really active I wouldn't recommend zoloft. I think we all tend to have those days when our self image is very high and other days where we feel like we look like shit. I guess it's just life and you're probably lucky to not be ugly all the time as some people on the earth are and have to look in the mirror every day with that on their mind. As bad as you have it some days, there's always someone who has it worse.

ok i am on zoloft and im losing weight and i feel realy good bout myself and i love it i was the same way well i think that its zoloft and they put teens on it so if your mom was on it and she wasnt a teen thats prob why she gained weight

I'm not sure of a family history of that but a few of my cousins seem to suffer from depression once in a while.

Originally Posted By: cooldawg2

I think we all tend to have those days when our self image is very high and other days where we feel like we look like shit.

Yeah but it's been happening the same day which is whats weird. Like i could wake up in such a good mood and be like that throughout the day and then all of a sudden i feel so shitty. Or like i could wake up fine and then when im getting ready and i look at myself in the mirror i get stressed out, but then in the middle of the day or something i look at myself in the bathroom and i feel so good about myself. It's just really confusing.

you know what...

i feel the EXACT same as you. i have HUGE mood swings. one day i think. "man, i look damn sexy today!!"

than other days i dread to look at myself in the mirror and i cant stop crying. so i know exactly how you feel hon. everything builds up and i freak out. as in little things set me off and i get soooo angry. then 10 minutes later im fine and happy. it really bothers me. and i never really noticed it until i read what you're going through.

Yeah thats basically the same thing what i feel. I mean i know there are a lot other people who feel this way to, but i know its not "normal". I just think i need some help because im afraid this will escalate..