Ugggghhhh! That is SO what I feel like. It is gone, I can't hardly compose a complete sentence in less than 10 minutes.SOBER= Son OF aBitch! Everything's Real!!And I am not dealing with it very well at all. Oddly enough, this go around, I haven't wanted to drink anything for over 3 weeks now, but I am finding, that day by day, as I think I should be adjusting to the detox or whatever you want to call it, my head is getting worse. More simple?I used to be able to say, X is why I did what ever. Now I can only form a yes or no answer. Then it takes a while for me to explain why, because, though it is in there, I have to wait for it to come back. We are at war around here ALOT because I can't "get it together". Example: last night, Iced tea ran out. My daughter asked if she should make more. I said no. (mostly because it is the instant super sugary stuff, and they are just sucking down the sugar like mad children!!)) My manthing asks "who used it and didn't make more" My daughter responded with "it was me, because mom said not to". I just said "yep, I did".Apparently, he is counting on it being made or somehting, because he had a huge fit,(Tied in with a misunderstanding of who was supposed to take out the compost).And that is exactly my problem. I can't remember which order the tea and compost went down, NOR did I tell him why the tea didn't get made (I usually do a little explaining of myself, and he is ok with it)...Now I am like SOOOOO frusterated, because it isn't something I can just throw a switch and change. (I guess I could get loaded, but what's the point in that???)There are a few things more than my sobriety going on, like he has been given back more of the responsibility of his son. He is trying, but has had so little involvement in the workings of the house, he is totally lost as to what is going on. PLUS with kids, they are ever changing, so life at home is ever changing, and he is looking for the consistent threads, (the kids know what they are. I stopped being so harsh, but I still expect, clean rooms, and one family contribution chore per day from all of them (compost belongs to the dish doer which confused the manthing!), AND ESPECIALLY their homework done, and good behavior at school.)The boy thing, is a HUGE challenge, as usual. But at least by me giving it to his dad, DAD gets to see what I go through everyday, and now knows why I wanna check out!! (The very first day, the kid got to him so bad he went to bed WAY early with a migraine, vomiting and the whole mess). So I know this is a stresser....Anyway bringing it full circle, all this going on, and my communication skills are well, just absolutely failing me!! Does anyone (besides my Dr.) know if there are meds that will help let me focus through this mess? I really think I can FINALLY really relate to add or adhd in a more complete way. Yet, when I DO get something figured out, I am hyper focused. So I wonder if I should just deal, and keep putting stuff down on paper...and there goes my head, around and around and around...I just want it to stop!!!
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Brain donor!
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Originally Posted By: RadAll you can do is ask the doctor if there is anything that will help.My guess is you mind and body are trying to get you to drink again. I plan on talking to the doc. If she doesn't know what to do, I have another one that I can see who might. It will just take more time..I wanna fix it NOW...lolThe not drinking part, is odd, this time around. I haven't had craving one. I have more consciously said, that is the difference in how I feel/think. But NOT wanted a drink...no craving, absolutely no consideration of actually doing it. Just comparing the differences.So you think, even under that, it is still messing with me? Still a craving that I don't feel as intensely?
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I guess I should add, that I really don't want to take anything if I can get through this without, but damn!!!
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I didn't get back to this thing very quick. But, after some careful (though longer and more scattered) thought. I think I might just roll with the punches, and give it another go of quitting smoking. I'm already screwed up right? Maybe I can just get it all over with at once...
I guess, I just really need to get my family to rally 'round and do their best to deal with the raving bitch who can't remember her name!!! LOL
I wander around often, wondering what I am supposed to be doing with my day. Lists and more lists, not that I complete them, but I AM getting the important stuff done! Like, I got my manthing's divorce finalized. So as of Monday, I am dating a single guy!!
My head is just confuzzled most of the time. Like, I forgot what I already did, SO many trips out to the garden just to see that I had already made my rounds, or to the bedroom to see if I got all my clothes hung. Urgh!!! Then, of course there are these lame little arguments that turn into stupid pissing contests. -
:PWill be going in next week, due for a fallow up on my thyroid...Ok, now see, that is why I come here and ramble. My thyroid was low about 5 weeks ago, the doc upped my dose, and about the time the new dosage would be up to near par, I started really loosing my mind...Maybe the blood work next week will explain more...Thanks for the nutty convo...Now, I need to go back through this, make a list of questions for the Doc, so I don't forget while I am there!!
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It is my friggn thyroid!!! So, I went in about 2 months ago for a blood test and a REFILL on my thyroid replacement meds. (Levoxyl). Well, I was on a dose of 200mcg, that ran out, but my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone)levels were 20 times higher than they were supposed to be. Should have been around 5-7 but were at 105. So the doc upped my dose to 250mcg. Well, instead of calling in a scrpt for 250mcg, she only called in 50mcg for me to take with my old 200mcg script(Which had expired and I was out of). I didn't pay enough attention to the bottle, so I have only been taking 50mcg a day, thinking all this time that I had been taking 250mcg. Went in for my blood work yesterday, and the TSH is up to 115! I should be feeling better within a week and back up to par within a month. If I confused you...lol just ask, I know there is a better way to explain this stuff.So, here is some of the side effects of a low thyroid, and I bolded he ones that I am dealing with:There are many risk factors and symptoms that point the increased possibility of low thyroid. Risk factors include: females, age over 30, a family history of low thyroid or auto immune disease, post-partum depression, infertility, multiple miscarriages, pms, weakness, problems with skin or hair, lethargy, sensation of cold, impaired memory or mood, constipation, weight gain or loss, muscle/joint pain, emotional instability, swelling around eyes, face or legs, nervousness, depression, heart palpitations, fullness in the throat area or difficulty swallowing, and many more.
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I'm glad it's known what it is!
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what is a thyroid? and what health problems can this thyroid cause?
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The thyroid is a gland in the neck that produces hormones that regulate the metabolism of the whole body. If the thyroid is underactive the body's metabolism is too slow, and if the thyroid is overactive the body's metabolism is too fast. The links give more detail about symptoms.
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I'm glad things are looking positive and that you're improving I hope you're well.