Hey all, i am back! I hope to be around alot more like i used too. Alot has happened with me in the past few months. I am still training MMA and currently looking for a job. Finished up this semester with ok grades i guess. Had some fun holidays, basically just hung out with family. Anyway some other things have happened.My girlfriend and i are currently broken up. There are alot of reasons for this but in a small summary she has lied to me too much, is emotionally immature, her moods bring me down, she has torn me away from friends and wont let me go out and have fun, and i have had enough of it. We are currently on a 1 month break and at the end of the month we will see how we feel and see if we want to try to work everything out.I got the confidence to break up with her from other women. I was doing a small side job one day helping this lady move furniture and stuff and i met her daughter and talked with her for hours afterwards. She seemed very into me and it was nice being able to have a real conversation with a women (i cant really have conversations with my ex too well). It made me realize there are other women out there and my ex isnt the only one.I also went to a NYE party and met a ton of girls there. I had girls all over me the whole night and made out with more girls then i can remember. Not something i usually do but i was quite intoxicated and i felt free and was just having fun. I have gained alot of confidence lately and its really changing me for the best socially. I used to have alot of confidence issues with my height (5,4 maybe 5'5 if im lucky) but apparently my height doesnt matter because ive been meeting alot of women lately. I have been partying alot this past month or so and i am looking to give my body a rest now. I have been drinking and smoking (pot) alot and also hookah and now i just want to give my body and mind a rest from it all. Ive had my fun lately but its getting to be too much, i had the opportunity to smoke tonight and turned it down and decided to be the sober driver for the night. Other than that things are pretty much the same. Im ok right now and just trying to have some fun in life since i havent been able to do anything the past year and a half due to my ex girlfriend. I still have feelings for her and have been missing her. I did not leave her because i wanted to party and have women on me all the time, i left her because it all got to be too much. Too much emotional stress, all the problems, lying, bullshit, immaturity, etc, and most of all my freedom. I am too young to be tied down and i finally realized that. If my girlfriend can work her problems out then i would be willing to try with her again if i was able to trust her and have my freedom. I know that she is missing me alot right now and really wants me back. She called me up today crying today and apologized for everything. She is not a bad person she just was raised wrong and i dont think she really knows any better and i think me leaving her finally made her realize she cant be the way she is and i really think she is regretting it. I currently miss her but part of me feels like its all been too much and its too late to save us, only time will tell i guess.Anyway happy New Year all! I hope you all are safe and in good health and would love to be updated on how everyone is doing. -MMA
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Im Back! (A post of what ive been doing)
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Welcome back! Sorry to hear about the girlfriend problems, MMAfighter90, but getting more confidence in yourself is an excellent thing.
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Glad to hear you're enjoying life right now. Hope everything continues to go well for you, and you make the right choices with everything going on right now.
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Welcome back MMA...Glad youre on a new life path. Good luck with that