What do i do....

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i just lost the greatest friend ive ever had and, even though we were hundreds of miles apart, the greatest love ive ever had, we were so close to finally seeing each other and she left me for someone else. i know she cares and i know she wants to be friends but i just cant. i dont even feel like i can breathe at the moment.this girl was everything and now i have nothing.

I'm so sorry This post is lacking:If it's who I think it is, I'm really sorry. It's going to hurt for a while. Love is powerful and it's painful when one leaves you for another. I really hope you'll be okay. You're such a great friend. If you ever need me or anyone to talk to I'm here.

thank you, and for what its worth im sorry for everything thats happened between us. i never wanted it to go so bad neither of us deserved it

Oh it's okay. Don't you worry about that. I'm really happy now I wish you were too..

dont think thatll happen anytime soon but thanks for saying it.

well i did it, i told her goodbye and this time i mean it, i wont answer her calls or texts, not now or three weeks from now. maybe eventually ill just forget her altogether...and yes abi, it is who you think it is.

Aww darling.. My heart aches for you, hun, and you know I've always cared about you. If you ever need to talk, rant, cry whatever you know my number.Unless you deleted it!

its odd though, i havent eaten or drank a thing since 11 on monday and i dont feel a thing..

Im sorry:(

thanks alot Abi and Steph, im doing a bit better now trying to get back on the horse. if only someone hadnt made the damn thing so tall! but no ive been flirting a bit and eating actually which is a nice thing so surprisingly enough its getting better.and um yeah i kinda did delete it...sorry...

If u ever need to talk I can give u my email address .. Im on MSN alot.. or facebook.Im here for u!!I was just talking about how I was so hurt when my ex jermaine and I broke up.. and how heartbroken I was. Today I said how happy I was that we're not together and laughed about it. Alot of things that happened wouldnt have happened if we were still together. Though that happened a long time ago.. Im 150% over it now. It just takes a couple weeks.. take some time for urself and go out with your friends! Stay busy.. time heals the heart!

thank you that means a lot.now im just a little scared because she wants to be friends(honestly) to the point where shes said she doesnt think she can be happy without me in her life and i just cant do it. i can forgive her but i dont think i can ever be her friend again and she cant seem to accept that. shes not bugging me much, she understands atleast that i need time. but even with time i just cant see us being friends anymore...

well you deleted it for a reason so I'll leave that alone lol Really, Daniel, you're such a great guy. You're sweet, intelligent, and a one in a billion. It just means there's someone so much better for you. I'm not saying that in degradation of her because I adore her. But I mean someone who's more for you. Your perfect soul mate, your future wife and mother of your children you know? So cheer up because you deserve the best.

If you don't feel like you can handle the friendship right now just tell her that it'll have to weight. It's going to take you awhile to heal. That way it's not saying we can't be friends it's just saying we can't be chummy right now.

I MOSTLY agree with you Abs.Several years back I had a girl I really loved, shes the only one that ever dumped me. It rather fucked me up, did not eat for days, drank very little that wasnt booze, did not sleep much at all.did not date at all for fucking months. I think I would of been happy with her had we still been otgether today, however we are not and I dont regret it because I did find someone after her, someone I love a hell of a lot and am closer to than I ever was to her. that closeness comes after time.At this point, I do not give a shit about her, she fucked it up, not me, and i have one hell of a great woman.I do not believe she was lost so I could find Julie, just that there is more than one person out there that you can be happy with.With Julie, I am fucking ecstatic, much better than happy, but I do not think I would of been miserable had I been able to stay with the other one.Course with Julie I got the bonus of my 5 year old, between the two of them they more than make up for the other one, and she was a bit fucking flaky, not nearly as smart or driven, but she had a really cool dog.I do not think shit like that happens for a reason, I think that shit happens and what happens next is dependent on how you deal with it.Its a waste of time to be sick and in love with someone who does not return the affection. Shit happens and people feel like they are the only ones that ever suffered that way. Its bullshit, everyone suffers like that and while ti does not feel like it at the time, it all goes away, that feeling gets better, and you find another and hope it doesnt end the same way.Life is a bitch, get a fucking helmet.

You like old Rockabilly?how about buddy Holly--1958Its from the apartment tapes, recorded at home with just him and his guitar, not released till 4 years after his death and dubbed with additional instruments, but its exactly what you need, trust me. Some lines are a bit dated for kids and CDs...but its still all there.What to do now that she doesn't want meThat's what haunts meWhat to doWhat to do to keep from feeling lonelyWant her onlyWhat to doThe records pops and all the happy times we hadThe soda shop,the walks to school now make me sadWhat to do I know my heartaches showingStill not knowingWhat to do WHAT TO DO EDIT:The original, undubbed, and the version I like best: ORIGINAL I have all the apartment tapes, but then I have everything he or the crickets ever did, just surprised to find that version on Youtube. EDIT #2, you may also want to look into LEARNING THE GAME ITs another apartment tape from that same time period. Unfinished, him dead 2 months later never to return and put on the polish and record it.Hearts that are broken and love that's untrueThese go with learning the gameWhen you love her and she doesn't love youYou're only learning the gameWhen she says that you're the only one she'll ever loveThen you find that you are not the one she's thinking ofFeeling so sad and you're all alone and blueThat's when you're learning the gameWhen she says that you're the only one she'll ever loveThen you find that you are not the one she's thinking ofFeeling so sad and you're all alone and blueThat's when you're learning the gameThat's when you're learning the gameMusic always helps, trust me on this.when you start to feel better, change the music to Cherry Poppin Daddies, No Mercy For Swine! Well with bloodshot eyesI'm finally brokeI feel like I just had a strokeWe made a stainShe said my nameI drank a thousand beers for that dameNow we're the couple in the cornerTying up our tongues to the percolatingRhythm of the big bass drumShe said no jack don't you go backNo jack don't you go backSo we hit the floorSlicked up to the ninesAnd I tell you there will beNo mercy for swineI'm swingin' on the chandelierDrowin' in a thousand beersGot it down to an artLonely sex with a desperate heartThe way to get over someoneIs just to get under someone else?And show them no mercyNo mercy for swine

yeah i know but i just dont think i even want to be friends, this has changed my view of her so drastically i dont think itd be the same. it'd just be a shell of what it once wasand Chance those were pretty good but i am getting over it surprisingly quickly, ive always been pretty good at bouncing back.

Well then tell her, sorry honey you missed the boat. I don't really understand this being friends crap anyway...

i think in the end, like you said, i should just wait til im fully past this to make a decision.

Haha oye te ve, chance! I honestly love you like... seriously.And you called me Abs... there's only two people in my entire lifetime who has ever called me Abs =pCan you adopt me?Oh wait I'm going off to college...BEDARNITS!Daniel, you've always bounced back. You're a survivor cue Rocky muicDid she cheat on you though? Is that it? Don't answer that if it's too personal I was just curious.