Thanks. I went to the wake Wednesday. The Funeral is Saturday. I feel like everything is spinning out of control right now. I tried "just doing me" but somehow it always ends up right back with me doing for others. I feel like... I have to play the father's role in this family. My brother's bday was yesterday. I had to buy the cake, make it, buy the gifts, pay for half of dinner, cheer him up because he was depressed about his dad not being there. I'm like... this is a load of bull. I'm only 18 yrs old. I haven't spend money on myself not ONCE because I've been so busy helping my mom out. And don't get me wrong I'm grateful to help her but I mean like... I feel like an old woman. Go to school, go to work, feed the kid, clean the house, do the homework, go to bed. What the heck? I like being "independent" but I'm not friggin 40 why am I being treated like one? :frowning:
I just don't want things to slip by me you know? I'm really sorry. I hate complaining. I just needed to get somethings off my chest and I don't want my mom to get the impression that I'm being ungrateful, because I really do appreciate the sacrifices she constantly makes for us.