Not much to really talk about, I just need to vent somewhere.Already so it goes back to when I was with my gf and was in an open relationship. I met up with a friends friend. And we started hanging awhile. Now mind you, I didn't actually do anything while with my girlfriend. Ironic really if you knew me.She didn't seem all that interested in me, but she never knew anyone with an open relationship and ask me details, I explained how it goes, and also to try to back myself up said I probably wouldn't date anymore if my current gf broke up with me because I was getting tired of all my trashy relationships.But after she broke up with me, I was pissy and hurt, and I slept with the friends friend.Then a got a nice, Congratulations! You've now found out that you took this girls virginity and she actually really really likes you!Great. So basically, to make a long story short, I got this girl who really likes me. And she's a great girl. But, I find when we don't have anything to preoccupy us, or screwing around. We just have NOTHING going for us. We get bored to tears, it just wouldn't work for a relationship and I try to explain that too her but she doesn't care and still wants a relationship.Now she's not actually trying to pressure me into dating her, but I know she really wants too and I feel like shit. Her main attraction to me I think is she's a bit over weight a good 50-60 pounds. But she's not really that bad looking, But she's grown up in a town full of athletic people, so generally people don't go after her.So I've treated her better than anyone else has, so I suppose she's stuck on me... But I don't know. I'd really like to make her happy, but I know a relationship between us wouldn't really work. So yeah. I'm a douche, I fucked up. Life's a bitch and then you make people cry =/
I'm just a F*** up eh.
Most relationships between people are not evenly balanced - it's perfectly normal for one person to be in deeper than the other. So a situation like this isn't so unusual.But it is an unhappy one. I'm afraid there is no way to get out without tears.
I know, I just thought I was better than that. I guess not =/