Life is full of surprises, most are fucked up and dont work in your favor.You go through life exceeding expectations, never expecting anything from anyone, but wanting a bit of consideration, but you never get the gratuity you deserve. Its fucked up! Im in college, studying law, working, paying my rent, paying my bills, taking car OF MY SHIT! and im still compared to this mindless idiot that i have for a sister. and on top of that, my relationship is in the slumps again, im fucking exhausted from work, and school, AND im even looking for a night job. shit was so much easier when i didnt give a fuck about the world.the girl im madly in love with, is madly in love with me, but the relationship is not convenient, She possibly likes another person, and all in all, i dont care, if he makes her happier than i do, FINE BITCH THEN LEAVE!I cant say that ill be better, i cant say that ive been living better, the only thing that i can say, is that im living,"never change yourself, only change your direction in life" I made that up, and im going to live by it, If i dont have someone thats going to love me, and that i can love equally back, in my life, then fuck it, ILL CREATE THIS MOTHERFUCKING DYNASTY BY MYSELF! I came into this world by myself, i went through everything i been through, BY MYSELF, and guess what, When i get those bullets in my chest, IM GONNA DIE BY MYSELF!
Issues Arise *Vent*
This is one of my favourite lines that I tend to go by: I used to give a fuck, now I give a fuck less.Who gives a fuck about your sister.. obviously you're a better person then her.Take things as they come... try to deal with them in a more positive way and hopefully things will start to look up.Im here for you if you EVER need to talk. I mean that.
Don't compare yourself with anyone, and don't accept any comparisons. Your life is different from everyone else's.Don't push yourself too hard, Grown. The human body and mind are not built to take most of the time what they can take occasionally. In particular, don't get a night job - you are doing too much already. You need time to rest and recover. We can feel your stress.