So, I was reading an erotic story…

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.…on nifty, when I figured out why I have been to myself lately. You guys know about that guy I had oral sex with while he was kinda dating one of my best freinds, right. Well I think that I fell in love with him. I feel like I was used, thrown out like trash, and dumped. I know that we weren't realy going out, but it kind if felt like it to me. For example he'd talk to me like he actually cared about everything in my life. He'd pick me up for church, but then we started talking about sex, and I said that I'd give him a blow job one day, I was really horny, so he picked me up. We drove out to his grandpas land, he also had to get a tree stand, I said that the land was beutiful. He agreed. He found a very secluded spot and looked at me smiled and said "are you sure?" I said "yes". So he unbuttoned his pants, pulled his dick out, and I went down. He had the best tasting CYM I have ever had. Then after that it all he talked about was sex, so I guess it was a compliment on how good I did. Then I was aske to leave the youth group, we were in. The youth leader didn't know what happened. We just never got along, and kept saying are you sure this is were God wants you to be? Over an over, so I felt like she didn't want me there. One day I got a message from the guy and it said "if you ever tell anyone what we did I will kick your ass!" (except with worse grammer). After that he never talked to me agian, except to see If I was free togove him a blow job. Then he started dating another one of my best freinds, and started going to my new youth group and now he'll talk to me, but it's just casual stuff.Am I being irrational?I know there is stuff below it, but I'm using an iPod touch and went back to correct somthing and couldn't get back down, so just ignore it. Am I being irrational

No this guy is being an asshole..!!If he continues with his asshole games I wouldnt be scared to tell your Best Friends what happened!But come on.. what were you doing fooling around with your best friends boyfriend? You both kinda fucked up to be honest.. Im sure you know that already though.

It was during that awkward break up stage. And I would tell her, but he's really strong, like football linebacker strong, or what ever he is strong.

I bet he was feeling conflicted and mixed-up himself. I wouldn't be too quick to condemn someone struggling between lust and duty, and I think it's best to leave it as something that happened in the past. I wouldn't tell anyone.

I'm 16 and he's 17.

I don't understand what you are saying.

He's was (is) a horny teenager and wanted a BJ from whoever was willing to give it. Leave it in the past and let it go. He's probably being (or was) a dick because as soon as he nutted with his cock in your mouth he was like, "Oh shit! What does this mean? Am I gay?" So he's all conflicted and confused and pissed at himself for wanting head even if it was from a guy.Don't waste your time with him and let what happened in the past stay there.

That doesn't help anything I still feel like I was yesterdays trash and worthless, not scuicidle, and everything else thy comes with being a "sheg and leave," and I don't want to be one of those people.

I think the sad truth is that, this time, you are one of those people. Most people have been that person at least once, I know I have. It happens, it hurts, we learn from it.

the crappy feeling you're having will pass if you let it. Try not to hang on to it.What you went through is a pretty normal part of teen life but also adult life. Sometimes, when people are emotionally confused, they use people. It's not malicious, it's just part of their journey.I've been used and I've used and I've been around a bit longer than you my friend.Not everything in life is pretty but it's life.

Thanks everyone