Was I Molested as a Child??

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I remember being very little and going to the doctor. I don't remember why I had to go. My mom was in the room and I had to lay on the doctor's table thing with my shorts down and the doctor touched me to examined my vagina. I remember wondering why my mom was letting him do this. It felt so I odd and I was so uncomfortable. The only time I ever have someone examine my vagina was last year for a pap smear. I don't remember having my breast examined either before. I do remember the doctor using the stethoscope and he had to go under my shirt when I was younger (bra wearing age).Another time me and a childhood friend were literally in the living room in front of one (or both) of my parents, but we had a blanket over use and the friend ask ( I don't remember her exact words) if I would give her oral. I said no, but she could do it to me. I must have been about 8 or at least elementary school age and she was older 10 or 11 maybe. The tv was on and I then my folks were ignoring us. I remember seeing her years later and being so embarrassed and ashamed. I couldn't look her in the eye. I felt like everyone knew what happened. I wondered how a kid knew about oral and have the courage to ask unless maybe she had been molested. Could that be a possibility? Was I taken advantage of or is this just something curious kids do?I've never told anyone about either of these experiences.

It's so hard to say with the small scraps of memory that tend to be all we retain from childhood. You could have had a vaginal examination for all sorts of reasons. And curious kids do play sex games, without it's being a heavy thing, just like they play other games. I think a lot of kids learn a bit about things like oral at a much younger age nowadays because older kids learn about it from internet porn and pass the knowledge down, so I don't think it has to have come from experience.

I don't know why I would have needed a vaginal exam.... I don't know; it seemed weird to me.

And no one had internet back then.

Possibly as a result of an infection? I don't suppose you can ask your mother about it?

Ughhh...that's not an option. Even if I could ask her she probably doesn't remember.