My dreams and my depression

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I dont know what is going on, yet im kind of happy. I have thought of suicide many times, dont know why, really, i thought how would it be to be dead, sometimes i feel so empty and pittiful that i cant even speak or look at anyone. I get really sad when i see stupidity of people, especially of ppl who i love, the only thing that stops me from suicide is my mom, who i love, and i know if i do something to myself (which is pointless and stupid) it will be the worst thing i would do to my mother. And to my dad ofcrouse.DREAMS: I usually dream about some real life events. I see a street, a person, a car, something unique. Than in real life i see the exact same picture, and when i do see it, i feel like i had seen it before. It happened many many times to me, wierd stuff.

Are you under any kinda stress at the moment? i went throught a stage in my life where i was always woundering what it would be like if i was dead but i could never do it cause of my grandparents who i really love . the dremas are proberly the way they are cause your have a lot on your mind are you worried about anything it may only be small but if its in the back of your mind it can come up in your dreams.

Man I feel for you.
If you feel it would help you then I think you should talk to someone about these feelings, these thoughts of suicide.Life can be exactly as ou described, empty and you just look around and see all this stuff thats so stupid adn it really gets to you. You can get help, you don't have to go this alone. I'm glad you find the strength to go on, it takes courage to say no I'm not doing that cos if I do it's really going to mess people I care about up.
Dreams are funny things, they are our minds way of trying to sort out all the thoughts we've had during the day and yeah they can be a bit messed up at times and preminition like. Talk to someone you trust, a doctor or consellor, or even keep talking here. You don't have to go throught this alone.

I’ve thought about suicide many times, have been close to ending it all many more times. I know it’s stupid but the thing that usually stops me is knowing that someone is going to have to clean up after me, whither it be washing down a road/carpet or picking up body parts. I don’t think I could do anything where someone else would be involved, like stepping out in front of a train, bus, etc… I’ve seen countless times what that does to the person in the vehicle.Most of my dreams are usually about death or have death around them, I know several have been of drowning. But a couple of days ago I had a really nice dream of the future, where I had all my friends around me, all the people I love and care for. It makes me cry to think of this dream again, it’s the first I’ve had in a long time.I really don’t know what to say to you “user666” except that there are people here that will listen to you when you feel down. No one will ever know how you feel about things; each of us have our own battles that we must deal with in time, but I know from my own personal experience that asking for help is one of the hardest things you can do, talking comes second. We many not fully understand what you feeling, but it does feel better a lot of the time to just type it out, I also found that it helps put a lot of things in perspective.

Dreams are like life itself, you have limited control of them. Like life, try not to take them so serious. They say they are a link to our subconscience, but most of us do NOT operate from our subconscience, otherwise we'd know to take things in stride and that everything turns out ok, even after you die. Suffering is a part of life so next time you suffer, say to yourself, "Now this is livin!"

This I something I do not do, but I feel I should. I have never thought once of suicide, but Caleb (you all know him as CR125) has, and he has attempted suicide twice, that we (the family) know of. I entered into our rest room and found the sink covered in blood. He took the time to rip apart one of his sister’s razor’s and get the blade out. That was the most horrible sight that a brother could see. I will not begin to think about the way I would have felt if I had been just 1 minute later. He would not be here now. Our mother found him the second time, Passed out on the rest room floor. He was raced off to the local hospital. Now, He can not be left alone nor use anything sharp unless he is being watched. He is alive, but not well. He is trying however, we (the family) have that fear of him being left alone and not being around the next day.User666, you are very correct, your mother would be beyond crushed. No words can or would express her feelings if she were to walk in and find you dead. As for dreams, I hardly ever remember mine. For Caleb, it’s something he fears. He fears sleep because he can’t escape his night mares. Our Father has to physically (not abusively) make him go to bed.

diver, i had that dream before with all my friends and loved ones reunited. It made me cry too man, holy shit. whenever i think about that dream, i get sad, and i really want it to happen, but i know its kinda impossible so it makes me cry (kinda)

I know of one other time that he's tried, but this is not the time or place.I know Caleb worries about me, as I worry about him. I know we have both promised each other to stop doing it, but it's so hard at times.I don't know what it is, but there is a place on one of the roads going out of my town. And for as long as I've been driving, when I get to that point it comes in to my head that, that is the place that I'm going to die. I don't know why, but it happens every time and only when I'm going out of town.For me sleep is an escape, I don't fear my dreams, even when they are about death, to me that just makes me sad. I like sleep, I don't have to face the shit of day-to-day life and keep putting on that "happy face".I know that these two posts have been "downers" but I'm doing better now, I've lowered the dose of my medication so I'm not walking around like a zombie anymore. I'm returning back to work from a three month break, I don't know if I'm "looking forward" to it or not, but I miss my regulars, the people that come back to see me and don't usually bother coming in when someone else is on.Anon, yeah it was a nice dream. It wasn't just the people I care about around me, but also people I haven't met yet (if that makes sense?), I wish I could dream about that more.

i don't like this thread.

usually dreams where you die or get killed mean that you are going to live for a long time. heard that from my grandma.