my brother

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Hi, I recently dicovered im bisexual, (I used too be strait)...

And I have a HUGE fetish for my big brother... Im 12 and he's 5 years older than me (17 years old)... I feel so wrong...

And I mean A HUGE fetish, I had 5 dreams about seeing his dick and sucking it last night... 3 of then I ejeculated in my sleep.

Insult too injury, a week ago he got out of the bath, and I was laying on his room floor... He put a towel on, walked in his room... Right over my head...

Yep, Suprisingly I was not grossed out... I felt like 2 armies were fighting im my head, one trying too grab it, suck it, then get fucked by it, and the other, trying too stop me from doing that... Luckly, the second army one..

I masterbate about twice a day, which I think is normal,Ya, s but what I dont think is normal is that I'm beging god too make him walk in on me...

I also know he masterbates (dont ask me how) and I want too walk in on him, and fuck hi and fuck him and fuck him...

Ya, sad, I know...

whats a kid gotta do... Sometimes me and him playgames were we climb on each other and try too push the other person of the bed...I always end up on top, then I get a HUGE erection, and press my dick againts his ass like im fucking him... Then I imagin I accualy am fucking him.. HE acts like he dosnt supect a thing...

I walked in on him one time, however.. Next thing I knew we were watching porn..What made me sad is that niether of us puled our pants down...

Even sader that all stoped the next day...
And it was back too normal..
For him, at least..

What should I do, I know its ok too be gay, but like this..?
I can barly stand it anymore...

Hi Almist, I think at your age sexuality is often not very settled, and if you are horny it can be whatever is around . . .

But that doesn't mean he feels the same. It's the big problem with sex, when A wants B but B doesn't want A, and there's only one right answer to that, but it isn't easy.

In this case it's worse, because even if he is interested, he would be risking jail if he did anything, especially with 5 years age difference.

We've had guys interested in their older brothers before on this forum so you are far from alone.

@Almist04 Welcome to A2A. I agree with Ineligible. At 12 years old, you are just beginning to sort out sexual feelings and it is not unusual for you to be feeling the way you do. However, it is extremely important that neither of you ACT on those feelings, as doing so could cause you both (but especially your brother) to be forced to carry a sexual predator label for many years.

@readytogo Thank you, and I understand that. Its hard too just act like nothing is going on, however.

Not too meantion, yesterday, he forgot too lock his door... Again...

And as usual, this weird, almost monster inside me got worse...

Sure, I understand, nomater what, I cant accualy, do anything.

But I wonder... Ive been looking around A2A, and found an intresting post.
Well, comment too a post, but he said he walked in on his brother and made a joke saying "Thats a huge pack you've got there", and all was fine. Plus, other were applouding the action.. I wonder if I could share that kind of stuff with him... We both already know we both masterbate, but hesitate too talk about it...

Me and my brother have never had a good relationship. I know we fight because were brothers, but our relationship is diffrent, I mean itss cant be discribed with words. And I really think this will make our relationship a whole lot better and we will be whole lot more open too eachother. SO, is that ok?

@Almist04 You could try making a joke, but the fact remains that your brother could get into some real serious trouble if he acts as you want him to. Why would you think that getting involved with things people often had second thoughts about would be a good idea? Don't you have some friends your age that you could relate to better?