As for as i can remember, i've been bullied. I cant really think of a day at school when it hasn't happend, seriously it fucking happends everyday. Just about everyone i come in contact with makes fun of me or pushes me around. This is what happends everyday at school. Every fucking chance they get they make fun of me. Even when im not talking they do it. It really hurts. I wouldn't mind as much if the people who were doing it where doing it by them selves, but when other people who aren't making fun of me hear it. It makes me really sad. Like last friday People were making fun of me in class and someone said something really hurtful the whole fucking class heard me and they all laughed. Having 20+ people laughing at you really sucks. I felt like just snapping right there and killing them all. Why do people do this to me?? I never do shit to anyone i try to stick to my self. I have no one who would help me. I dont have any friends never have, so no one has ever stuck up for me. I skipped so many days of school because of this. One time a guy pushed me down some stairs and everyone laughed, I have been beaten up by 6 guys at once for no reason, During silent reading some guy yelled out something hurtful at me, I was eating lunch minding to my self when 3 guys came up to me and got my food and shoved it in my face, i got a waterbottle throwed at my head, i have gotten spit on, I was reading a book in class and i looked up for one second and this really pretty girl told me not to look at her and slapped me when i wasnt even looking at her! all this has happend in the past two weeks. Im so sick of this for the past 8 years i have been dealing with this everyday. im 17 years old btw. I dont see why people need to do this to me everyday, and i cant see how these guys/girls can be so heartless. I have been depressed because of this for years. I cant deal with this anymore, and im afraid im just going to commit suicide. I really have no reason to go on its really to painful. what i dont understand is why people do this to me, i dont go around these people they come to me, i can be sitting down doing nothing and have guys come up to me and start making fun of me i mean im not even talking and they do this! if i leave they will just follow me. I have told my parents about this and they said it was my fault for being ugly. so i never have talked to anyone about this after that. I keep telling my self when people make fun of me to just snap but it hasnt happend yet. I have so much anger inside of me because of this, sometimes i feel like murdering everyone who makes fun of me, but i know i could never do that =\ I just wish it wouldnt happen as much, it happends every fucking day! Its more hurtful to me when girls make fun of me. I dont mind getting beat up as much as i do being made fun of. Im probably just going to commit suicide, i really cant take it anymore and i have accepted death. THis shit isnt going to go away any time soon Its too painful to keep living. There is no other fucking way I have no goddamn control on this, i cant control other peoples actions and i think its my right to commit suicide. No one gives a fuck about me I have no friends i dont get out at all and im a loser. Well as im thinking about this all right now, i think i know what i will do. I know im not going to put up with this any longer, Im going to get revenge before i kill my self. Im going to get all these people that do this to me by them selves and Beat the living fuck out of them. I have so much anger and i think i would actually be able to inflict major damage on all these people. I want them to feel the way they have treated me. Tomorrow im going to go throughw ith this. I have thought long and hard about this for the longest of times and i think its time to show them who they have been fucking with for all these years. I dont deserve this Bull shit. If i do this i will not stop and most likely leave these people with in an inch of their lives. I cant deal with it anymore. Actually i been writing this down for about 30-40 minuets and thinking about it. I was going to write this down anyways but i found this forum and thought i might share what i have to go through with everyday. It ends here.
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I think i Might Snap Or commit suicide.
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This is terrible. No-one should have to suffer like this. I hope Craig can help - this is an area in which he has special expertise. Here are a few suggestions of mine:1. Write a polite, formal letter to the school principal, explaining what is happening in his school and asking that it be stopped. Don't say you feel like killing people. Do say that it is causing you unbearable distress. Use a cc list (a list of people who get a copy) - it's an important part of writing effective letters - it's hard for someone to ignore a letter if they know their superior also has a copy. So send a copy to the chairman of the local school board, and to the relevant local politicians. Your school has a duty to protect you.2. This will be a slow process, but try to avoid acting like a victim - that encourages bullies. Face the world with all the bravery you can muster, and even if you don't feel any confidence at all, try to show as much as you can (without attacking others, of course). Try to be interested in other people; try to avoid despising them.3. Remember that schools are nothing like the real world. They are little cultures that matter a lot to the people in them, and not at all to the people outside them. The time will come when you can put it behind you; and when they later send you appeals for donations, you can calmly tear them up.
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Man you have to take a stand :| i can't believe you let this go on as long as you have,If someone does something to you, do it back to them, or worse The reason people pick on you is because you let them, you said so yourself,Stand up for yourself a little bit and things will get better, I speak from experience
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dude seriously i know it sux but you have to take a stand, I use to be bullied alot, but then I start getting in fights and beating the shit out of kids and pretty much since then no one has made fun of me and i have alot of friends, also see if you can take some form of martial arts, this will help you control your fealings a little bit more, thats pretty much all I can say about that, but dont let them intimidate you, NOONE and I mean NOONE should have to go through that
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man don't let this shit go on don't kill your self why should you have to end your life man you need to stand up for your self can't wait for someone else to man you should find out were every one of them fucks that are allways fucking with you live wait out side their house in the morning and when they go to walk to school bang and if there bigger then you get a baseball bat you need to stand up for your self these kids deserve what they got coming fuck the letter that shit doesn't work or they get in trouble and pick on you worst you need to beat the shit out of them
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shit man... if u wnt to pay thm back.. u gitta stick up for ur self.. if they push u..kick thm where it hurts wit one swift kick d they wont even suspect once u win one fight thn ull be respected.. but dnt try to fight wit a pact.. just ignore thm..ofcourse off campus... and if they come at u run away in a sarcastic way.. u know wat i mean if someone punches u jst say "aww tht hurt" trust me jst be sarcastic d not annoying like all the times... keep ur friends close but ur enemies closer.. for example say one of ur enemies forgot a book at class go after him d gve him tht book.. tis will bring u up a little bit...and tht girl who said "dnt look at me!" jst be sure she dsnt hve any big brothers or anything like tht d tell her in the face "don't flatter ur self honey"... make sure u go to school not dressed like a nerd, or stink put perfume or anything d try to blend in.... thtz wat i did d im telling u its worked i have tons of friends.. jst do this dull be fine..take care
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thanks for all the advice, i actually am going to get into some fights today. I leave for school in 15 minuets. The first comment i hear from anyone is going to get their ass kicked. I will probably go fucking crazy on them, and im pretty sure i can take a lot of these guys one on one.
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fighting is not the answer and will only get you in trouble
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Much of my high school years were similar to what you're going through. It sucks to be the guy that everyone laughs at. For me, I was tall, really skinny, goofy, and people were convinced that I was gay (I'm heterosexual). I honestly don't think that anything would change if you got into more fights or complained to the principal. Instead, you need to find a few really good friends, and you should try to pick up a hobby or a sport. If you have a couple guys (or girls) with whom you really connect, you'll be less of a target, and you won't care as much about external disapproval. You might also consider working out. I found it to be a good stress release in HS, and after a few years, I was big enough and in good enough shape that people stopped making fun of me (and girls gave me positive instead of negative attention). Anyway, things will change as the people around you become more mature. I occasionally see some of the people that used to make fun of me in high school (I'm 26 right now). Surprisingly, we're on good terms. People change, and beleive me: after leaving high school, you'll never experience what you're experiencing now. HS can sometimes suck, but it gets (much!) better.
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Amanda did you grow up in Beverly hills or something?
You seem to have some twisted, goody goody outlooks on alot of things?
Where i am anyway if you can't fight you wont last long, sounds like this guy is in one of those area's...
But everyone else is right, kick the living shit out of someone and everyone else will leave you alone
Oh and for legal reasons let him take the first swing :wink:
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I brought a knife to school... This morning i thought of 3 people i wanted dead and i had my heart on killing them with the knife. I just couldnt do it, im not like that. I had a perfect chance to stab someone but i knew it wouldn't be worth it. Right now im at my lunch break, im not going to go back to school. Right now im just thinking about killing my self. I cant take this anymore. Im not the type of person who can just get into a fight... I really want to but i just cant. I was so close to killing 1 person today i wanted so badly to do it but i just couldnt. I dont know what to do.
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Dont let them ruin your life, i used to be bullied a whole load, too much, so much i wanted to kill myself, wanted to stop it all from happening, but then we moved, i got out of that situation and it stopped. Maybe you cant move or leave the school or whatever, i just saying that it might take an unexpected turn for the better and you can escape it another way, other than having to kill yourself. If you do kill yourself, the bullies have won, they have gotton to you and have won, and that not good. i showed the buillies that they had won, and i regret giving in as much as i did.Rise above it, above them, show them that you are stronger than that, and when they need your help, they wont get it, or better still, help them, show them what a great person you are, so much better than them! please dont kill yourself over it, it will get better, you will survive this, and dont use violence against them, otherwise ppl who dont know what is going on will see you as the baddy in all this.
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wow SiC dude, dont kill yourself and seriousley dont go killing others, violence isnt the answer, just beat there ass around untill they shutup but dont go using knives, or guns either, its not worth the trouble youll get into, trust me, i know, i tried it before
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I dont even know how to fight. What exactly am i supost to do??? i just know the basics.. =\
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its quite simple really, have you ever tried boxing or martial arts??? I personally like both but what you do is up to you, but either way still dont go taking knives to school or you WILL get caught one day and get in some DEEP DEEP shit, i got caught and had to go to juvie for 2 months
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I'm with Amanda.
You're right that it's a bad idea to bring a knife to school. It's also a bad idea to start a fight with everyone that bothers you. You could screw up your chances of succeeding at school, which is much more important than vengeance. It's not worth it; there's so much out there beyond the highschool jerks who are making fun of you. The same goes for suicide. Don't let a couple of highschool jerk-offs push you into ruining everything.
Being strong is more than about fighting...
edit: whoops, this should be Re: Panda, not Re: SiC
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if you read up a bit i DID say not to go fighting with every one who makes fun of you, but heres another though, get involoved in some afterschool stuff, like sports and clubs
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ROFL couple of jerks yea right.. ITs more like 40+ people.. And fuck that afterschol shit. I Wouldnt mind having a couple of friends but after 8 years of this shit you tend not to trust anyone. Right now i dont give a fuck about having friends, i just want people to leave me the fuck alone.
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well do you trust people here at A2A??? BTW if you ever want some advice just drop me a PM ill be glad to help because I know just how you feal
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LMAO I dont mind talking about this here since this is a fourm but ill tell you in real life id never fucking talk to anyone about this. Its to embarressing and painful.