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Yeah.. I feel happy when i see her... Im always looking for her online.. I sign on and off.. If she is on.. I stay .. If she isn't.. Im off.. I just took two online 'love' tests.. With her in mind.. they both came back positive.. Am i making a mistake by going onto IS? Tomorrow.. My currents classes will be no more.. As soon as i check out.. Is it worth staying there for her? HELP ME.. Why cant i ever be sure

I can't answer if you should stay or go to IS, BUT, you can. You seem that you at least have strong feelings for her. Now, just remember, we all have someone out there for each of us. It may be her, may not. If it is, then she will come visit @ ur house, online, etc. Just because you don't go to the school doesn't mean you can't see her, right?

FUCK MY DAD... First off.. He says i can be on IS till i 'Fuck it up' .. Now tonight.. He says I'm just a pain in the ass.. FUCK HIM... Maybe i should just end it .. Right now.. no more pain.. or suffering... FUCK SCHOOL.. FUCK HIM.. FUCK LIFE

Don't do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not worth it!!!!

and fuck IS ... Its stupid as hell.. I didn't like what they were saying today at the meeting.. Im going back to regular school.. but guess what? I'm not telling my parents

Lifes not worth it to me anymore.. Everyone is more for me fucking up.. cause i cant do anything right.. Why dont i help them fix there fucked up problem... Im going back.. Im not going on IS.. They can shove a cock up there asses.. If they dont let me goto school.. Tomorrow is my final day

Well, if your happy with doing that, then go for it.

I think i will.. Just listening to them tonight.. Sounded like.. You basicly start in a hole.. and attempt to dig yourself out.. which they said.. Its the most failed thing in the DISTRICT!!! We have a big district... and i cant graduate from it..

Well, its all about what makes YOU, and nobody else, happy.

Wow, lot's of new posts. Anyways, it's good that you're weighing the pros and cons of the situation. Do not feel disgruntled about not being able to make a decision right away. It is a hard decision.Does girl Y make you want to live? Keep her as a friend. And only if she feels like she wants more out of it, then go for it. Gotta be cautious. You're emotionally unstable and I think you still need to talk to someone about it. The problem is on a higher level than just finding the place to learn. I'm afraid IS might put further strain on you and thus creating more stress. More stress wouldn't be good right now... And 5 to 7 chapters a week is crazy studies. Do you think you'll be able to keep up and put up with all the stress that goes with it?

Well.. I was just going through the orentation from this evening.. FUCK THEM.. If i screw up.. ( Fail a course ) I HAVE TO goto C School... No back to regular C SCHOOL.. SO Screw that..

So, since you've decided not to go to IS, you should probably still talk to a counselor or someone. Maybe they can get you into easier classes at the school or even help you with emotional/mental stress and problems.

FaBMX, I know it's difficult, but it's often very important to make a decision and stick to it. Decisions are hard, because they commit you - they mean you give up some things, and have to do some other things. Any decision will be like that. But it's important. If you don't make decisions yourself, then they will be made by others, or by life, and you will not have control. Take charge! Make commitments! Commitments are the key to achieving things. You get things done by focussing on them, not by trying to keep everything.Take responsibility, make a choice, and go with it!

I made my decision.. Im sticking with school.. I went and told my counselur no on IS this morning.. he didnt have a problem with it.. Actually happy i decieded to stick with school.. Im starting over.. Im doing everything right.. I bascilly have all F's right now.. So starting today.. I'm doing all my work.. homework.. Like i have it set up.. that i do nothing but homework from 1600 to 1800 ... I finished early today.. .. It kinda felt good completing all my homework.. Kinda weird.. But.. this is my decesion.. Thanks guys

Good one FaB. I would have supported you all the way on whatever decision you took but I have to say I think you might the right decision.

Good on you, FaBMX, for making a decision. It'll be hard work, but we're behind you!