Im ready to talk now

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Ok here i go ....i dunno why im telling you this as i havent told anyone else yet....the reason i did what i did was becouse im fat ugly a shit person and im very lonley..i have only got my nan n grandad sorta my dad jason and baby who are the only people i know with out of the computer and at the time i was so lonley i try and make friends by going to courses and doing diffrent activitys but people never seem intrested in me at all. I have tried my damn bloody hardest not too hard though to look desprate, but nothing works i feel as though ill be alone for ever i mean ive been like this for 3 yrs now and i hate it i hate myself for it...as for ugly i think im a real ugly fuck up really i do and a fat bitch.....i dont wanna go into it all too much as im scared what i might have felt then may come back as im feeling a hell of a lot better about myself now. But then i also worried i may bottle it all up again and do something stupid like that. I feel as though im alone in the world in my own little box that nobody wants to come a vist. I feel as though im nobody just a shadow in the corner of the room damn it i have to stop now its getting kinda to close to the bone for me bye xxx

Im sorry you had to go through what you did last week, or whenever it was. And about not knowing people, I think there are people in here who know eachother quite well. Maybe not in person, and to some people computer friendships might seem "geeky" but they're friendships nonetheless. People care about you Fluffy. You can see it here and I'm sure if you look hard enough you can see it in the people in your life, like your baby. Your BF, mom, sister. You say you're lonely, but it seems you have a lot. Some dont have even half of what you have, and I'm not trying to compare you to tham, but it's definitely worth thinking about. You have a lot of people who trully love you, even your sis got on here under your name and so did your mom? I think. N E Ways, we love you too, and you have to realize that you are important. We are all fine threads as individuals but together we weave the basket of life, and we're all needed in this time and place.

i know my sister did but not my mum she didnt she doesnt even talk to me she hates me she said i was the mistake

hugs we love you and care for you, dnt no what else to say. just that you are important to us and mean the world.

....cute!

I want to visit your little box.

HUGSI'M SORRY YOU HAD TO GO THREW THAT ALL.WE ALL LOVE AND CARE 4 U.i dedicated the song HOLD ON by GOOD CHARLOTTE to you.

guys help i feel ill again and no ones home till late

You need to understand that people love you and you're very beautiful as a whole person.

i dunno whats wrong wiv me i feel do arghhhhhhhhhhhh fuck bastard shitting hell life is bollox