Fall Out of Love

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Concentration on yourself. Reflect on your acheivements, and strive to complete goals that are yet completed.

So basically what I started the day I wrote the whole "Epiphany of Sorts" entry?

Government only pais 35 cents a mile. Who are you working for, the MAFIA?!?!?!?!?!

I work for the state government. In the past 5 months, I only got $2 taken out for federal income too!!! lmao

Ah, so far today is a good day. Slept in late, got a haircut, jammed to some linkin park. Yeah.

Wimpers Linkin Park...his favourite band. ='(

A lot of things remind me of my ex. I have to let these things go though. As for your situation, you just need to read things out. You haven't lost him yet.

I know I have to give him time but when has he had enough time and if I don't go to him, he may not think I still want him. I thought a week would be enough but now that he's also sick, I don't know.

Take some drumming classes. African drumming if you can find it, or Afro Cuban. At cultural centers they are sometimes free. You would not believe the shit you release when calling on the drum spirits.

His mom should be able to help you out on when he wants you around again. Be strong, take some time off and do things for yourself. I know it helped me out a lot.As for drumming... eh, I think I'll stick to working out and writing poetry... Thanks for the suggestion though.

I dunno when he'll want me around again though...I'm an impatient person. Should I keep trying to get touch with him?

It's hard to say... truthfully, I think he just needs a little bit of time for himself, but you know the situation better than I do.

Talked to him today. We're over. Is it bad that I've basicly skipped over grieving and gone right to pissed?

No, there's no law that says you have to follow the textbook emotions in the textbook order. We're people, we don't have to follow the rules.

No, not bad at all. I think you have a right to be pissed.Last night, I got so wasted. Luckily, I still remember what happened, cuz we had 2 chicks lickin' chocolate syrup off of each other. Oh man, last night was so awesome. It's all a part of the healing process!

I wish I were there...you took pictures, right?

heheheheheheheheheh

Send ASAP

No, I can't do that. Some people might get mad at me. haha.

Eh, it was worth a shot.