I was born with an eye condition that seems will never be fixed. I have been getting more and more concerned about my survival in the world. I find that it is extremely difficult to be myself, to make friends, to find a job. It is very depressing and it makes it worse that many people are not understanding of my problem. Does anyone else have this problem and if so, how do you get over this fear of public gatherings, one on one conversations...anything that involves eye contact.
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Lazy eye
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What's the name of the condition?
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I believe the condition is called amblyopia. as i live my life i see that the majority of the worlds population is blessed with "normal" eyes. i dont wish to commit suicide, however i often wish that i was never born. I understand that i am "luckier" than a lot of people mainly pertaining to people who are living with fatal diseases, such as hiv, cancer, any other problems. But i also dont think that i should ignore my problem. I have had 3 surgeries in the past all of which have failed in my opinion. When i was younger i never saw it as a bad thing however as i grew older i started to see that i was different and that hardly anybody spoke to me. I have never had a boyfriend,i am afraid of intimacy. What do i do, how do i "live", it is difficult to be empathetic as it would be very hard to imagine not knowing what eye contact is or self confidence, self esteem......its horrible. How will i survive in the current world, i am scared.
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This sounds more like a confidence/self image thing, I bet you look fine. i have a lazy eye that 'slips' sometimes. I hate making eye contact, but it's something I will have to deal with.
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i had this as a child - i had to wear an eye patch on the 'good' eye to strengthen the 'weak' one and it worked like a charm
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I had a lazy eye as well, and had it operated on when I was 7. I'm 16 now and its mostly fixed but when im tired it does slip a bit, i can sort of identify with the eye contact thing as well.......but as another poster said i think its as much to do with confidence as the physical condition.....if its leading you to be depressed then some counsellingmight be a good thing.