I’m having a little problem with a few friends. And it is bothering me. 1st, it’s 3 friends each different reasons. Friend 1 I’ve known for 6 years. (yes it’s diver) and I’m very worried about him cuz he’s not acting normally. I haven’t talked to him since Mid Jan. before then it was beginning of December. I know he’s been sick and that’s not helping the worry. Last time I talked to him he wouldn’t do auto (witch we usually do) but I did… I talked he typed. But he told me he had a doctor visit for more tests. He’s throwing up blood. Good news is it’s not cnacer,……bad news is they don’t know. it’s been over a month and he hasn’t; talked to me. I’ve emailed him almost every day for past 3 weeks.. No answers! I’m worried about him! I’m worried I may not ever hear from him again. Or worse he’s dead. It confuses me cuz when we talked he talked as if we’d talk the next day the next day came and our time passed and nothing. next day nothing.. no email saying sorry or no email saying he coudln’t be there ( as what we both do when something comes up) well…like I said it’s been since mid Jan. and I just can’t forget about him. Maybe I am am closer to him than he was to me. ..I dk. My other friend I’ve known since I was like 4 or 5.. Most of you have heard about Ash. Ashley is kinda drifting away I think. I know it happens. But I think it’s her boyfriend more than her. When she is with him she separates from our group of friends at school and when he;s not around she;s back in. he skips classes a lot. But still I know that if they break up I’ll be the one she calls and I’ll be the one that tells her he was a jerk and ther eis better and bl abla.. I’ve done it twice b4. it’s her MO close friends when singel and whatever.. Just when I need him friends when she;s dating. I’m sick of it but still she;s a friend and I can’t turn my back on her. Friend 3.…..much like ash but haven’t talked to her in 3 or 4 years and now bam! She’s back. (yea she is a net fiend.. I’ll get to that latter) I had really really believed I’d never hear from her ever again… (and she knows it! We have talked) I’m afraid if I let her in then as soon as I do it will be all over again. Not talking for weeks…then months. then years…..then never ever again. It happens.Now I know a lot of people view net friends and real friends as separate, but I don’t. I was actually told net friends don’t matter. And that told me right then that that person didn’t care about me. A friend is a friend no matter where they live or how we get to talk. Sorry it’s just how I feel. Now I been talking about this issues for a while now and half say one thing and another half say something different.. I dk what to do. I understand people come and go. I get it that people have other stuff to do. I GET IT! I’ve even been called selfish. I don’t think I am. I know most of it is my worrying for diver and frustration with ash. So now added to the stress of not knowing about diver…..and wanting to fuss at Ashley… I have to decide what to do with friends. Keep talking to them…………or say buy cuz one day they’ll be gone anyway. Maybe I should just say fuck it! Tell myself he’s away in some ocean diving and having a fun ole time. And just play my roll and let ash cry on me when she’s pissed at her boyfriends…
Some friendships last for life, and some don't. Sometimes people just drift apart. Perhaps that's just as well, because we only have time for a certain number of friends and if we didn't lose some old ones we couldn't make new ones.Even if a friendship doesn't last all your life, that doesn't mean the friendship wasn't real, or didn't matter. It was just as real, and just as important at that part of your life.