Okay so I usually get cold sores all the time, the result of some childhood exposure before I can even remember so I've been cursed with that my whole life. I reguarly get thoughts of suicide when my mouth breaks out in sores and I'll usually hole up in my apartment and call off of work for as long as I can to avoid the intense shame and disgust and gorge myself on yogurt, tea, cheese, and canned tuna and compulsively shove Lysine supplement pills down my throat all which the internet says is "supposed" to help.
My last active sore was like 1 and a half weeks ago. Right now there is absolutely no sore on my mouth. Last night I was lonely and bored so I opened up my porn folder and got to jacking off. I'm out of lotion and conditioner so I licked my palm and got started. I felt my dick chafing but kept on going. When I finished off, I felt a really irritated patch on the shaft right under the head.
It was kinda red and nothing was there before I started only 10-15 minutes prior. Being the nervous, paranoid wreck I am I intensely examined it and saw it looked kind of red and blistered but the bumps didn't look like cold sores or herpes. The bumps are the same color as the normal skin, kinda a raised patch. I applied ice for a minute or two and it caused the skin to get tighter enabling me to have a better look.
It's not very noticeable unless I really try to look for it. Today I tried to squeeze it to see if clear fluid seeped out and really nothing emerged. I'm have skeptical but also extremely panicked, my heart is beating really fast right now and if I get an STD on my dick my life is over.
I have not had sex for almost two months which is why I was alone on a Saturday night masturbating with spit of course, and the last time I had sex I think I used a condom but the memory is kinda hazy and to tell the truth I think my drunken dick was too flacid to get inside her anyways, she gave me head for about a minute and then gave up and I finished her off with my hand. A whole different story though...
So I am to believe that if you catch any STD unless it's AIDS, symptoms will show up no later that 1-2 weeks after the encounter, that window had long passed.
So is it possible I just chafed it really bad? I've done that before and thought I had herpes but later I found out of was nothing but irritation from being too rough.
Can you get herpes from your own saliva? I googled it and really found no useful info. Fuck google. Like I said I had no sore when I did this and the saliva came from my tongue, never touching my lips.
Also this "blister" appeared almost instantly after I finished, STDs don't just suddenly manifest as soon as they're exposed right? I mean it should have taken at least 3 days for symptoms to be noticed?
Another factor is that it does NOT appear to be spreading even though I've touched the blistered area and the rest of my penis without caution. When I get a cold sore, it rapidly evolves from a small red spot to a bumpy disgusting mess the size of a United States, George Washinton quarter. It has stayed the same size for at least the past 16 hours. With the cold sores I can literaly see it growing in the mirror.
So let me break down the facts:
- Masturbated With Saliva
- Normally Am Affected By Cold Sores (or HSV1)
- No Active Cold Sores
- Penis Developed Skin Colored, Rasied Blister INSTANTLY after close of masturbation session.
- No Recent Sexual Activity
- Sore Is Not Spreading and behavior is unlike cold sores I am extremely familiar with.