what im about to say is going to sound weird and strange.. well basicly... i'm really depressed.. theres family issues i have been having.. not getting along with my step dad he hits me sometimes...... but mainly... this is the weird part... I'm ashamed of what race i am... i'm a mexican and i am so fucking ashamed to be one... everytime i look in the mirror it makes me sick, not only that but i hate other mexicans just because they are that.. i feel as if i should kill my self for being one. i really am so ashamed to be one, and i cant take it anymore.. yeh weird eh? people reading this must think im really pathetic.. meh. =\
I feel really depressed.
Hon, i don't think anyone reading your post would think you were pathetic.Depression, I personally think, is something we all go through in some degree throughout life, cos as we all know, "shit happens"As for being ashamed of your race, I think its more a symptom of your depression, a kinda focus. There is nothing to be ashamed of, no matter what race you are, what sexuality you are, how big or small you are, and if you read the posts on here, you will find all those......do you have anyone you can talk to about how you feel?
I can tell you something you have. You have guts. To come here and share that is not easy. I know it's anonymous and all, but it's a big step. I also judge that you really are striving for inner peace, otherwise I don't think you would have bothered posting at all.I too think you would benifit from someone to talk to. Is it possible for you to find a counselor to meet with on a regular basis? I was going through a pretty major depression about 3 years ago and began a relationship with a counselor. I found it priceless to have that constant influence in my life by someone who is trained to understand what I'm dealing with and to know how to help.What is it about being Mexican that you don't like? Is it physical, cultural, societies perceptions?ONce again, I honor you for speaking about your depression and feelings about your race. Keep posting. There really are some compassionate peolpe here (like Angel) who will take you seriously and support you.
first off, nice name...I gotta say sweet username.
Okay, well i do not think pathetic. There is a huge negative connotation towards people of Mexican decent. It is very sad, but it is how it is. Now do not do anything to harm yourself. If you are ashamed then make people realize that race means nothing. Skin color, country of decent, blood type, etc.. does not mean anything and none of those account for diversity, it is all about your heart and your mind. As for being hit that is something the authorities should hear about, I mean if you are just hanging out and getting hit then yeah go to authorities. But spanking or something, not to sure about that.
Awesome name. Yo me gusto.
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There really are some compassionate peolpe here (like Angel) who will take you seriously and support you.
Damien - thank you for saying such a lovely thing *hugs*
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There is a huge negative connotation towards people of Mexican decent.
Also have to apologise for not understanding where you were coming from spetznaz: coming from the UK i don't think i fully understood......
In reply to: In reply to: There is a huge negative connotation towards people of Mexican decent. Also have to apologise for not understanding where you were coming from spetznaz: coming from the UK i don't think i fully understood...... I am from California and I know that there is a huge negative connotation. It is very sad, but I know a lot of people of every race and none of it is true. We are all just people.