Bugger the car - can't you get public transport anywhere? Go to the movies? How about lunch if it makes public transport easier?Don't give up, do not give up. Just ask her - it won't kill you. Just do it, you've nothing to lose. You've made progress with your foreskin, no go make some progress with her (I'm not saying go get laid - but go ask her out and build a stronger, closer relationship). There's no reason not to.Oh, BTW don't rub it in if you win the chess game, sore winners are worse than sore losers Good luck!
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Foreskin is making me depressed
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So we played the game and she accepted the deal. I was winning up until my teacher came through and yelled at me for 5 minutes. The girl said we could just call it a draw and leave it at that....(subliminal message along with body language implied: I don't want to go out with you and that's that).
I got back from school, cried for about 2 hours, and am now severely depressed. I don't even have any energy to talk things through right now. I'll see you all tomorrow...I hope. I fucking hate my life.
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In reply to:
....(subliminal message along with body language implied: I don't want to go out with you and that's that).
Im sorry to say hon, but you men folk are NEVER good at getting the RIGHT subliminal message as you call it - I call it a hint - ive been with my finace now for 8 years and he still doesn't always get it.....don't be so sure thats what she meant hon *hugs*
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So I guess you are all wondering how I've been doing....HORRIBLY. Not a minute has gone by since yesterday where I have not thought up of different ways to kill myself. Its pretty pathetic.... I found out today that she carries a condom with her. I don't know what to think now....Excuse me while I cry my eyes out some more.I've been slipping into anorexia and I have found out that it isnt that good of an idea. (yeah, I already new it was bad but I wasn't sure what to expect). My nose bleeds really easily now and I have thought about just letting myself bleed to death. I am too pussy to go through with anything though. Could you imagine me willing to commit suicide but not willing to ask a girl out---that's idiotic.Right now I'm focused on my body itself. I just want to lose weight really fast and build up muscles too. I guess I can't really build muscles if I don't eat but...we'll see. The combination of depression and anorexia has made it difficult to get a good erection lately and has dampered my stretching schedule. I think I have successfully made myself worse. Today I couldn't even talk to people without getting teary eyed cuz I just kept thinking, "I don't really matter to anybody". I don't see a good future for myself. I dont think I will ever get into drugs or alcohol but I'll just be too depressed to do anything. This girl was the only girl in my 17 year life that has talked to me the way she did. I actually thought she was into me but I made a mistake. Jesus, I can't handle this crap anymore. I just wish I could trade places with one of your sick relatives so that I could spare their lives and take mine instead. I'm not worthy of living I've been thinking more and more about circumcision....then again I'm too pussy to go through that too.If you (a Female) passed me on the street you might say hey he's cute, and you would have no idea of what is going on in my head. So don't think I'm an ugly person, I just want you to realize how little has to go wrong with somebody before it screw their life up.In fact, as I was crying yesterday (and talking to myself) I kept thinking that--"How little would God have to do to somebody to mess theire life up completely." Obviously it's as simple as a tight foreskin and a slow metabolism. only in my dreams will i be able to experience a normal life. tomorrow I will be seeing the girl again in the student aide room. I'll just crack a joke about the chess game and see how things play out. I want to avoid the akwardness that I had feared would come if she rejected me.I'm going to work out now and take a shower/stretch. c u 2morrow
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Hey mate. I had a awkard situation with my girl! i was on the phone to her one night, and she said something like she had curry one night, so i said well your not going to be getting any kisses from me then. And BLAM she was like i hope your joking? so lol i sort of laughed it off and realised she only saw me as a friends.... BleH! i was crazy for this girl also had her in my mind for ages a lot longer than 2 weeks BUT YEAH! I GOT MY MUSIC ON, I SAW LOTS OF GREAT LOOKING GIRLS TODAY!!!. foreskin is tight still! and the girl of my dreams doesnt see me like i want her to! but you kno what? im really happy for some weird reason. If your girl is moving to new yor in a couple of weeks months, sit her down and tell her how you feel. No point in letting her go without getting it all of your chest. And at least you kno you wont have to see her again if it goes pear shapped!. dude your excatly the same as me EXCATLY. But stop doing all your diet stuff! Eat healthy work out and live a normal life, Just think. Your not Death, Your not blind. You have a lot to be thankfull for. so dont feel sorry for youself, turn your depressions into strenght and use them to stengthen your mind so you can laughat the whole thing like me!! muahahahahhaha. Lovc you all and want to get a girlfriend i can truly love, not any old girl Peace
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Thx4thehelp,Dude, you have no idea how much I appreciate your posts. Thanks for the laugh. I think I'm on the upslope of my depression now. I guess after bottoming out, it only gets better.
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In reply to: So I guess you are all wondering how I've been doing.... I honestly had actually hon. In reply to: I just kept thinking, "I don't really matter to anybody". I think you do.Its great to hear (in your last post) that your feeling on the up again. Keep talking to us. big hugs
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Hey, I know you're going through a tough time at the moment, but sometimes there's a reason for these tough times.There's a reason why we're constantly tested and put through difficult situations. Not because life's supposed to be difficult, but we're supposed to use these difficult things to make us stronger. To say "Hey, shit that was hard but I survived it, and it's made me stronger". Much like working on your muscles at the gym. If there's no resistance, the muscle doesn't get any stronger. We need resistance so that we can get stronger ourselves. Damn it hurts along the way (as does a workout at the gym) but you're stronger and better at the end.Our mind is exactly like a muscle - which I'm sure you can relate to. It's just like a workout - more resistance=more strength. Hack this one out man like you do at the gym, and you'll be a better person for it.
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So I saw her today again. I withheld all my feelings--damn that was tough. Seriously, she even wore a really low cut shirt today....(drooling). She said she got a paper-cut on her boob (I was like DAMN GIRL! :smile: :smile: :smile: I said I wouldn't know what it felt like and she said "Imagine you getting a paper cut on your ball sack!" It was pretty funny. I keep getting mixed signals. I don't think I will ever understand what women think or want. Afterall, she never actually said she didn't want to go out since I never actually asked her. Maybe by "draw" she implied to play another time or maybe she is just a sore loser. Muahahahaahahaaa....girls...I will never understand them.
I guess I am feeling better. But there is still a hint of anger in me...it's really weird I guess it's just me being pissed off at everyhting in life but I am aiming my anger towards exercise. I think its a good idea to turn anger into exercise cuz for one thing, after working out, I could care less about anything cuz of the exhaustion. Specifically, I'm trying to get in shape only to lose my "man-boobs". It was kind of embarrassing the other day when she went to give me "purple nurples" and she grabbed on to what may have seemed to her--a little too much for a guy to have. The good thing though is that I have noticed that I'm slimming down--it's just a little bit but its better then nothing. Heck, I'd be really mad if after all that working out I got no results LOL.
But something else is on the horizon...and this is really freaking me out. Last night, I couldn't get an erection--I tried and I tried and nothing! Today I woke up with one, but now I am again having a problem. I hope this is just cuz of the stress cuz I would rather go back to my normal phimotic penis than to not be able to have an erection.
Also, I had another nose-bleed today. It wasn't as bad as yesterday but its still the 4th day in a row. Yesterday marked my end to the anorexia, so I hope I'll be better by tomorrow. I just hope I didn't do anything permanent.
Last night I did some stretching. I can successfully retract while flacid but it is still tight when it reaches behind the head and creates somewhat of an hour-glass shape. It doesn't hurt like before so it seems like progress is occurring. I have given circumcision alot of thought and I am now thinking that if I get the chance, I would do it. The only thing I'm nervous about is the lack of cover on the head, it just seems like it would drive me nuts. If I do do it, I would wait till I turn 18 since I could legally go by myself and not drag any family into this. It's imperative that nobody finds out. I figure that maybe I can play sick for a week while I recover--that way there is no/less suspicion. I'm just curious as to how much a circumsision costs.
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Glad you are feeling a little better. I would advise that you not try to read too deeply into comments like you mentioned. I really don't think the "draw" meant much more than you just didn't get a chance to finish the game... so you call it a draw.About your stretching.. Are you stretching when erect? If not, I would recommend that you do so. Yeah, I know you said you couldn't get one today. You're just stressing too much. Relax.
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Hey, keep up the good work man! just dont be circumsized because im not . And i have a favour for you ladies in the house to help me with. Well i made some more progress today, i am now gonig to the gym with the girl i like and she showed me her 4 pack! then told me to feel her "thigh" muscle whilst she was on a leg machine, i then went onto the leg stack maching thingy and she said she hurt her crutch and she like stretched right in front of me and pulled her trousers down a little bit to "stretch". She then talked about her fat "which she has none, silly woman" and was showing me her whole belly! i seriosuly almost got an erection when lifting some weights LOL! i had to focus my foughts to calm down. So where their any signals..... Or you think were just friends? :P
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It sounds like flirting to me. But how serious, that's the question - I can't tell.
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I agreee. The best way to tell is to try something similar and see her reaction. Have a little flirt back - it won't hurt.
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ur getting hyped over nothing girls usally dont care what your dick looks like well i cant say that all are like that but the girls i have been out with didnt care. thats it you should really be think about goin to have sex with her if ur talkn to her dude, ahah maybe listen to what shes saying istead of picturing her naked ahah
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http://www.cirp.org/library/treatment/phimosis/I just went there. It turns out that I don't really have phimosis. Phimosis is when you have a white ring of hardened skin at the tip of your foreskin--not allowing the foreskin to retract. My foreskin doesn't have that at all. It's just tight. The website above goes into a better explanation.
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quick question:is it normal to have a big vein in the shape of a "J" on your penis...cuz I've got one--it doesn't bother me at all, I was just asking cuz on the porn stars their shafts are all smooth like pipes, whereas mine has veins that pop out a bit. And another thing, is there some kind of an excersice that you can do to make yourself come more? Cuz that's another thing...porn stars "come" pints of giz--I only come a little bit--a few squirts and then just dribbles.sorry for the graphicness of the questions
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Veins are normal. Sometimes the cum shots in porn films are faked, especially the ones where they produce a lot. You may produce a bit more if you are well hydrated by drinking lots of water beforehand.
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I don't know what is up with me today. I have been burnt out all day. I tried being active and happy but it didn't work. Even the girl was like "are you OK?"...I was about to tell her about my depression too but I just said "Yeah, I'm fine...I'm always like this". Then she replied by "no you're not..and then she smiled". At that point I just wanted to sweep her off her feet and make out with her as I held her up against the wall---my imagination runs off sometimes. So I just walked away and told her "Hope you have fun on spring break." Then she was like "oh, I forgot to tell you, I won't be here tomorrow." For some reason I can't bare the fact that I won't be seeing her in school tomorrow. She's the only motivation I have right now for going to school and now that she'll be gone for a week, I think I'll just veg-out at home over the break. I'm jealous of everyone else--they're all going to Florida or someplace nice and I'm stuck here in the house...damn I hate my life.
(right now I'm sitting at my computer moping and listenning to "Supertramp"--I might have to break out the "Led" soon if I don't start feelin' better.)
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Try to get out a bit during the break. Don't be too ambitious, but try to do something.
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Hey...dude...option A or option B. A: Don't worry about it, you've got extra skin..big deal, won't be visible when you're erect. B: a slightly religious point of view, get it removed, yes yes it doesn't cause u physical pain, or discomfort, but, and I hate to sound "bible thumper'ish" but, Jesus himselft said something along the lines, that "if thy eye offend ye, pluck it out..." so if it makes u uncomfortable...just have it taken care of...but it's all up to u buddy.