I am new on this forum and have been suffering from severe depression since about last November.
During this time I have tried everything to make myself better-anti deppresents, councillin etc nothing seemed to be working and I got worse but there wasn't really one main reason i have been depressed but a number of reasons.
These include not going out with friends no-one ringing me up and also getting extremly jealous of people with girlfriends etc and also jealous of the way people look etc. this made me hate myself so badly, i have always hated myself my whole life I have always been called names, never in a nasty nature but it still hurts you and makes you feel ugly all the time.
I tried to kill myself twice by overdose, because at the points that i did it i was desperate and had no-one wanted to talk to and felt that everyone hated me.
Since then I have improved so much and feel normal and happy again although I still have a few problems. There were some points during the last few months that I thought that I would never feel as good and as happy as this again but I do and it sounds arrogant but I am so proud of my self for getting myself this far.
Anyway, I know many of you think that you will never be happy and will never get out of the low state that you're in but trust me, you will. You have to make an effort yourself to get out of it though. You have got to think positive and things that you want to happen will happen. You have got to think about the good things about yourself and not the bad. There ARE good things about every single one of you without exception.
Everything you want to happen will happen- you will find someone out there who loves you for who you are and to cuddle up to and make you feel good about yourself and when you do find that special person you can post a message on this messageboard and tell me that i was right. I havent found the right person yet but I know that I will.
If you ever need to talk to me about anything I will always be there for you, I will always reply to any of your messages and help you get through the depression you are going through.
Trust me-I know you probably dont think you will be happy again but you will as i have learnt and when you do finally get through it, it will make you a stronger person. I never believed the person who said that to me but now I do.
I'm always here XXX