Last year, in 7 grade, was the worst year of my freakin life. I hated my life!! i so wanted to die.( want to note that i'm very insacure about myself) Someone called me ugly, and i felt like i wanted to go home and shove a knife through my heart. But i didn't. Everyday i woudln't talk to anybody, maybe a giggle, or 2 giggles at lunch with my so called "friends" they ignored me. but i still hung out with them. they wer the only ones i had. Any ways. Every day i would look more depressed than i was the day before. Then one day i had this worst day in my life. I don't know wut exacly happened, but i just couldn't take it anymore. So when i got hom from school, i took a overdose of medicine. And i mean, a BIG overdose of my ADHD medicine. My mom came home and and i about freaked. I didn't want her to know, but i did want her to know and i couldn't stand thinking about wut my mom would do if i died. At this point, i was very dizzy and light headed, i felt like i could faint. I told my mom everything and she called the docter, blah blah blah. Luckly, the medicine hadn't really kicked in at that point and i was taking to a hospital in time. I'm here today, siting in this chair, thinking back at what i did. I can't believe i did that. I'm still a little depressed, but i would never think twice about trying to kill myself again. I'm older and more mature now, and I laugh all the time. I'm like a regular teen now. I have friends now, and beleive it or not, they care about me! Best friend,(won't say name)who i love very much and i care about a lot. I got my first boyfriend, who I fell in love with a month after i met him. He's awsome. And i feel a lot better about myself now. I've goten a lot pretier, and more sofesticated about myself. And now, when someone brings me down about something, i say w/e and forget about it. And thats good. I've been going to my counsler for this whole 8 grade year of mine. And i think i'm starting off at a good start. Each day, i get a little bit happier. I hope nobody ever tries to commit suicide. I know its going to happen. But just read my story. And please don't try to go through wut i did. Don't try to kill yourself. I know u can't help being depressed, but think before u kill yourself. Tell yourself that wut would my family do? what about my friends? wut about everyone who i love, and they love me 2? Just think...don't go through wut i did. pm me if u have any questions or things to tell me..~~Peace... In reply to: Beauty doesn't always boil the pot!
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Read this if u are depressed, or if u just want to
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Very nice post. On the suicide issue. I have had 5 or 6 attempts ( none worked obviously ) and i still feel like i could easily try again.... I think about my family.. Friends... Friends are off in there little perfect lives... fuck my family.. dont give two shits what they think of me... So see.. Its pretty easy for me. I dont know why im telling you this.. Just.. good post! Wish you a happy life!
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ah man :frowning:
fabmx.
cheer up bro.
hehe.
life sucks but not that bad!
nah it truly can sometimes.
just be cool.
wishing you a happy long life. -
Back when I used to be depressed(in december) the only reason I didn't attempt to kill myself was because I'm not a coward.
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why do people think it the easy and cowardly thing to do?! i have tried before and it takes guts to go for it, it is the last resort (starts singing) and not an easy thing to do grrr
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Tried once (and failed, plus one cry for help, feble attempt). Really down at the moment, and the only reason I haven't tried again is fear of failing again. I wish there was an easy way out - I would have taken it!I'm not a coward, I just don't want to rely on others for the rest of my life, or have to carry on with scars or whatever.
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I'm currently in a depressed mood.. I don't know why.. A girl I liked told me she liked some guy... Some other girl isn't interested in me.. fuck.. sorry.. I just wanted to say that...
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Well.. Thats not really even the reason.. I'm seriously considering military service right out of HS.. and its kinda a weird.. Knowing I will probably be shipped to Iraq... and a good chance of being shot and injured.. or killed.. Just kinda a scary thought when your considering joining and its just been bugging me... But.. It will keep the rest of you free ( US atleast )
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Most soldiers come back from their tour of duty uninjured, FaBMX.I'd hope that by the time you're through school and basic training there would be no more US troops in Iraq.
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Yeah.. Its just that chance... You know what I mean.. Kinda scary..
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"...But.. It will keep the rest of you free ( US atleast )..."Free from what exactly - Are the Iraqis taking away our freedom? Wake up and smell the coffee. Or maybe you mean the freedom to take over a country without reason? Is that the freedom that Bush talks about all the time?
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Free from worrying about getting killed for saying shit they want to.